second last day

internet's back on- hence the sudden increase in post...

worked last night- and i was sick- runny nose. and i had to look down to actually do my work, so it was disgusting, good thing it wasnt busy. should have jus called in sick, but i didnt know it was that bad and because i have never turn up for work sick so i wasnt expecting that...

going home tomorrow
but it feels unbelievable- like wow, i'm going home tomorrow, so soon...
does that mean i'm happy or reluctant to go back?
and with everything i have to do before i actually go back- do all the laundry, clean up my room, buy the stuff i need to buy, finish all my food and make sure everything is off/closed (electricity, water, windows, doors) -i dont have enough time
oh wells, i can always not sleep and sleep on the plane- departing 1940 reaching 23?? at brunei

scare the hell out of me when i checked all the post i posted- they were gone- all because the date format- eg for 1st dec instead of the normal 01/12/08 i had to type in 12/01/08 (the american style) ...so i had to go jan 12th to change it...get it?

GG

I’m smiling. Never have been happier. In the middle of the night. I’ve finished Gossip Girl Season 1. Ok I know I’m kinda behind already.
But, never thought I was gonna say this, that series is awesome. No wonder it got so many ppl hooked.
I have to say E10 and E16 is the best- for different reasons.
Backstabbing, friendship, cheating, love, peer pressure, lives of the rich, family etc.
Cant wait till the whole of season 2 finishes before I start another few days of non-stop roller coaster ride.
But for now, season one will have to suffice.
XOXO

On a side note, made me realize something- being materialistic is only for the rich, and about having a brother’s love.

I’m kinda enjoying the no-one-else-at-home scene atm. No one to be worried about, can totally go into the kitchen late at night and make the din and not worry (but my neighbour), having clean up after myself only, blasting the music loudly etc.
But I know I wont survive living alone for a year…

and working in summer sucks- coz they crowd never stops- so for the first time, i finished at 10.45pm(instead of 9.45) and reach home around 12am-gg..

out!!- celebrating

I am freaking happy… very happy…VERY HAPPY!! Thank God Thank God Thank God…
I was like praying hard when I was checking results, but it wasn’t out yet
Until I decided to go back to sleep and someone called me to ask how my results were
I was terrified before the exams thinking I might jus fail
During exam I was calmer after seeing the paper thinking there might a chance of me passing
And now the result is out
And He is gracious..

night out

I did something crazy. Wore my pyjamas, walked out of the house (a hard thing to do considering I hv (mild) OCD) and started taking photos.

(i stood up before the shutter closed off- so there's nothing spooky)

我屋友离开了。 搭着的士。 剩我一个人在家。 现在轮到我开始清理房间、收拾行李 准备回家。倒数4天左右，我就会离开这___（自行填充）之地。
这是用屋友的keyboard打的。

刚看完I am legend。戏里主角是世上唯一一个生存者。一种莫名的感觉在心中顿时萌起。顿时觉得自己很孤单，朋友一个一个回去了，屋友也即将离开，世间仿佛也仅剩我一个人。 呼吸开始困难，情绪开始不定。自己就好像随时就会崩溃。

smiley face

Can’t believe I missed the smiley face-

from http://martins-skywalk.blogspot.com/2008/12/venus-jupiter-moon-smiley-face.html

phone

Talked to my mum just now after 3 weeks

It appears that I’m going to kl- due to miscommunication
I’m suppose to buy sth for my grandpa when I go see him in KL
Exchange rate dropped again- to 2.2
My fren’s mum passed away 2 weeks ago after battling for 5-6 yrs
My bro now exercises ‘his rights’ in not doing housechores
My sis is finishing SPM soon and she’s coming over next yr
I’m leaving this place on the 12/13 dec
I’m coming back to this place on the 18th jan
Within which I’ll get my driver’s license

and i jus watched the kite runner...nice

情绪酝酿到暴了才上来
是荷尔蒙失调吧
脑袋空空的 自己喜欢无中生有

人比人 气死人
和他比
比财产 比身世 比生活 比他拥有的
比牙齿 比幽默 比色盲 比酷 比社交圈子
比得没完没了
结果比输了
会恨他 还是远离

原来我不色盲
对颜色还很执著
对颜色看得很清楚
有黄，黑，褐，白

我白色朋友写到：
“Drilling 这门东西 面对的不是偶尔的挫折
而是反复的失败 直到成功为止
这 就费了一年的练习与情绪上的控制
或许 是祂有话想说
难道 是我一直以我学业的成就拟定我的身份、价值
而忘了我是创世者的孩儿这身份
难道 我太依靠自己的能力 相信自己
而不依赖祂
我要反复的提醒自己
it is at those points that we need to depend on him the most; to surrender it all
我学会了 我不是因我成就而存在 这些成就也不是我
我的身份 不会因为我露宿街头 而改变
因为我依然是祂宠爱的那一个”

1030pm 刚打完工
在同样的巴士站下
只是这次 巴士站旁的酒店
举办着我们牙科生一年一度的晚宴
欲上楼拜访 最后还是放弃了
快乐这么近 可是那么远

原来 我犯了那么多滔天大罪
还总是自圆其说
所欲 物质上的享受
所思 色
所求 人比人 比死人
其实都不符游戏规则
要比就和祂比 是比不赢的

接受还是改变 我问了好久
事情的真实性无可否认了
接受了又怎么样 改变的话要怎么样
我选择了逃避

我dirty linens 都摆出来了
Cabinet里的skeleton 也有葬身之地了
这住宅区不愿意容我了
要是人生可以更新
唯有这样作为象征
谢谢大家的支持

不许哭

作词：管启源 作曲：汤小糠

进一步 或 退一步
结局一样是未知数

被羡慕 也被忌妒
当我的手被你握住

想起当初如何被守护
尝尽了甜头也吃过了苦
翻着回忆不断的阅读
我们付出 如此投入

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
被你放弃不是最痛的输

也许对你温柔的拥抱还有贪图
我应该满足
我非常满足
我已准备觉悟

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
因为至少我们曾经被祝福

如果留下伤口要微笑着康复

我应该满足
我非常满足

4th of 10 DONE

It has been a custom for me to shout out


I'M



FREEEE..

but this time...wasnt that emotional
no tossing of the 'square hat'
no 3 shouts of 'merdeka'

Tired- 2 hrs of sleep the night before
Now relieved and there's no more cramming to do
Lesson learnt- will explore that some other day
Things to do after this- Heaps

Current state

back is hurting due to back posture when studying

eyes still sting

diarrhoea this morning- went to the toilet 3 times but amazingly healed after the exam(I bet it has sth to do with stress)

starting to panic for my next exam coz I didn’t know there was that much to study until last night when I checked- well good thing I suppose, at least I didn’t stress out that much

tired, exhausted. Let’s see I slept 5 hrs on 16th, 2 on 17th, 4 hrs on 18th, going to sleep 6 hrs (make that 5 now) on 19th, prob 2 hrs on 20th and I will be free….

Internet and msn is bad for me…

Pictures around(yes I was very very bored, tired, to the point of insanity):

Bird's eye view of my table- not like a bird can fly in my room

water bottle, watch, chewie, toilet paper (i had flu, nothing else), lollies

levitating laptop, lamp, lecture lnotes,

if only lecture notes were filled with random photos

my file- change my notes inside after every exam

a white thing...

my beloved lamp which has followed me for 2 yrs...

it was 3 remaning- now 1 left!!!!

yes i pretty much chucked everything onto my bed and then put everything back onto the floor when i need the bed...everyday

energy drinks- no i didnt finish it in one night- balanced it with coffee

starburst...mmmm..sugar...

ice cream.....*drooollllllssssssss........coffee flavour+chocolate-coated almond

I am extremely ‘hardworking’ during exam times ho…coming here everyday…~.~’’’

5/7

下午时分 – 我疯了！曾一时想过宁可学怎么考试时候扮昏倒。
晚饭- 烧鸭饭。苦中的甘（还有咸，卤） :)
深夜- 心情稳定下来了…可能是因为没上msn，没被朋友stress；可能是刚才洗了厕所（明天inspection）; 多半是祂的呵护。
一把鼻涕，一把highlighter。
现在要把past paper 看完，答案念过。
准备睡两小时。起来一杯咖啡，把全部东东在看一遍。
一年worth的东西，三小时匆完...

shoooooooooot

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Again. Tired, mentally.
It’s as if it’s neverending, I can never be ready enough for the exam
Jus when I thought I can take it, one small little detail blew me off.
7 hours straight in Reid library, highlighting pages after pages
Trying to memorise everything that I have to
Procedures after procedures,
Concepts after concepts,
Numbers after numbers,
And I am going to give up on anatomy and material science- and jus pray it wont come up
All this jus to learn the theory of making fake teeth.

And people. I hate people. Homo sapienS
People who jus talk non-stop on the phone trying to share stuff. I need to study.
People who stress out and complain to me. and make me stress out. I need to study.
People who jus talk to me on msn coz we hvn’t talked for long. I would love to but I need to study.
People who ask for my help. I did. But that’s wasting my time, and it may jus backfire this time and people don always appreciate. I need to study.

One more day, one more night
And it’s exam time.
Shud I do an all nighter tonight and tomorrow night?
Considering I’ve been sleeping very little and the body has taken a toll
And I jus got this email reminding me how shit my health is atm- acne vulgaris , liver intoxication, dorsalgia, ..
I hvnt even started on the partials yet and the past papers too. Apparently they kill.
So people are panicking, and words like
F***, S***, die,
screwed, kill, cry,
suddenly came into our dictionary.
AND we lived happily ever after.

conjuntions

Had a long rest after exam which was ok coz luckily I manage to cram (ok fine ‘RECAP’) ALL 24 lectures in 2 hrs just before exams which got me late for exams but it was still ok coz I don’t think they really care as long as u got enough time to finish and there WAS more than enough time coz ppl started leaving after 1.5 hr when the whole exam was meant to be 3 hrs jus like my next exam on Monday which I hv no clue whatsoever and it freakin involves a lot of memorizing- the whole year’s worth of lectures which would be fine if the lectures given was understandable, straightforward, INFORMATION-CONTAINING but noooo..the lecturer jus went on whatever he liked, jumping around topics (‘in retrospect’ and ‘leading to’) talking about nothing and he expects us to know everything he knows by reading the book he asked us to read which is quite shit as well coz like my fren said ‘is all over the place and talks about nothing-jus like the lecturer’ so the book has been there since the beginning of the year collecting dust and it will continue to collect dust throughout this weekend coz I m not going to read that freakin book but instead read the 3 compilations of notes that obtained from 3 different upper yr sources(yes ppl area kind enough to do that and I m recording now all the papers we’re hving coz we don’t GET past yr papers, like wtf) totaling 200 pages? (ok fine I’m exaggerating, so sue me) and I hv to memorise everything single detail on how to make a fake denture which I SUPPOSE will help next yr when we actually start making them on real patients and it’s going to be freaky coz it’s like REAL~ but anway..dont want to think about it now, got more important things to stress like when am I going to go back end of this yr coz, yes, I hvnt book my ticket to go back and I cant now since I’m hving exams and going all the way to the city to book it is an utter waste of time which i can utilize to study and speaking of which mayb I shud stop here and go sleep and wake up early tmr morning to do some studying for the next 3 days…
*gasp air*

我只想闭上眼睛 5 分钟也好
看完6 个lecture 就可以休息了 可是这几个lecture至少也有50页 而且全部都是要背的
明天醒来还要把全部在看一边 因为真的是不记得
周末-也没得休息 因为还要赶另一张考卷
刘力杨的《靠不靠谱》 不知道听了几次了
因为喜欢副歌的部分 因为没新歌听 因为旧歌听厌了
最后两瓶鸡精 明天一瓶 拜一一瓶 家里带来的一盒就这样完了

我不知道 我不知道 我不知道
我很累 眼睛很‘刺’
对自己很失望 自己ego放弃了id
我不想睡 睡了时间就没了
明天的试卷是最简单的其中一张 可是为什么我还那么stress 不是我一个罢了
还有好多好多要念的 又超无聊（关于怎样做research）念又念不进
真的很想放弃就算了 可是不可以不pass
开始饿了 可是最近好像饿惯了 酸了一下就没事了
我真的要睡了 很烦

--

结果睡了四个小时 起来是还狂k书
考试还好 不太难 多靠上天
下午睡了四小时弥补

Few things,

Perth International Festival brochure is out- go grab it- at ur nearest news agency for free!
There’s a few interesting (and free) event happening next yr…

Exams- first one done. Not too bad I reckon. It’s worth like 16% but it’s a barrier exam (as in you hv to pass to pass the unit to pass the yr).

Kiwi- I theorise?/postulate?/hypothesise? the part furthest from the stalk where it joins the tree (or is it bush) is the sweetest. So how would you make it all sweet.
1. eliminate the stalk. Smart but impossible. FAIL
2. it will be good if the fruit can rotate while it’s growing. Not smart and not possible. FAIL
3. if all fail, jus share (the sour part) with someone…

Ferrero Rocher- Don’t even know why it’s so freakin expensive. It’s not even that nice. Even kit-kat is nicer. I think it’s because people give it as a present coz it looks classier. And since it looks classier and is in demand and it has established a brand, it’s more ex. I bet one day when people stop buying them, the price will go down. Same goes for other branded stuff eg THAT mp3 player, THAT game console, THAT hand bag, THAT car….

SPM- a distant past- which has nothing to do in my life, like, anymore…but we were all worrying about it and stuff, trying to get super good result. Well I suppose you need those super good results to go somewhere, but I mean…errr…ok, I don’t know what I’m saying. Anyway, my sis taking it..wohoo..lol..

Yasmin- cant wait to go back and watch all her movies- Sepet, Gubra, Mukhsin, Muallaf (jus released in s’pore) and Talenttime(jus finish shooting)… having gotten so many awards world-wide...and she has a nice blog

Quite obvious I’m procrastinating here…

No wonder they say in third yr u’ll start to hate everyone in your year. JUS because i) u’ve seen them enough ii) they know how to get onto ur nerves when they need to iii) they know you too well to care how you think…

CC

I was reading the newspaper just now, and I saw a news report on Canning College’s International Student Graduation Ceremony. Man, that was ages ago. What 3 years already? Ok. Two. But yea, seemed so long ago.Our year has definitely started something new by having the graduation dinner at Hilton. A google search (a cat must have died somewhere at the same time) found a few blogs with photos of the ceremony and a video on youtube. It was just like ours, all the emotions, the photo taking sessions, the ‘lecturer-appreciation’ speeches, the performances, the awards. It wasn’t too long ago, that we graduated from that place. And now there’s ‘juniors’ whom we don’t even know going to join us in uni. Seemed so distant aye…

I was going to write about my year there, but nah…it’ll take forever, and I got more important things at hand i.e. exams. Maybe some other time, when I’m inspired again…

One more day till exams…panic+nervous-ness+fear+worry+adrenaline rush+stress starting to resurface after much suppression for the past few days… might jus break the seal..lol

Feel so weird typing in English again…

tHank yOu's to all, for everything....:):):):):):):):):):):)):):):)):):)

妈，生（我）日快乐！
原本不想‘致词’的。。。
前夕
唐禹哲的歌陪着我 在library
图书馆外 小组的‘惊喜’celebration 超棒的巧克力蛋糕 很好的朋友们 大牙齿的生日卡
图书馆里 朋友给的祝福 女儿的生日卡
一路骑脚车 背包里载满幸福
回到家 手机的短讯 facebook上的祝福 msn的问候 近的远的
我study week故意空了明天 可以好好庆祝 （也是万一念不完 有extra day 可以用）
今晚梦一定甜

当天
一早醒来 （其实也让自己赖到十点） 屋友送一盒forrero rocher 感愧交集
午餐 和同年同月同日生的朋友 （只差不同医院） 去了韩国餐馆
晚餐 和一班朋友 all of whom I’ve hvnt met for soooooooo long (ranging from 2 weeks to half a year or more )
The candy bag chicken-rice cake candle corny-ness camera-flashes car-rides and the great company

后序
一生只有一次20 （废话） 很高兴这次能过得那么愉快 因为也完全没碰到书
想起来 有点像塞翁失马
以前还认为挺可悲的 不再会有心情庆祝
现在觉得 是百忙中赐的快乐 是一个 ‘安息日’

感动 感激 感谢 感慨

untitled

prac result was out...my hands were actually trembling when i went to check my result(after being persuaded much)...4 pass and 2 resubmits. not the best but still good considering i thought i might hv failed...

i am very happy with my result-grateful actually, lucky. but some people were jus pissed(even they got the same result as me)- complaining how they are one pass short to pass the unit, and now having to come back and redo the exams again. and when i tried to talk to some who didnt quite do well, i ended up being cut by them -the 'oh-u-are-so-pro-u-can-say-watever-u-like' talk.

that sucked

and talking to one person who has passed all 6 and one who failed 2 on msn at the same time wsa dumb- it's like u're typing happily one moment and feeling sad the next

exam is this sat- so freakin near- and i dont think i'm even prepared for it...

and i'm tired

我在浪费时间

感觉上有点在孤军作战 ~_~

原来上网可以上瘾的 :

~中午上网查了怎么去掉衣服上的茶迹（用柠檬水/醋）@.@

~之前发现我杰伦的专辑曲名完全不对 早知道不要那么快下 况且也并不是很好听 >.<

~刚才狂下歌 部落格看见人家提起什么歌 我都下 现在平均五分钟有首新歌听 :0

~喜欢这部落格的feel 还赢了什么大马中文最生活化部落格 :)

怎么办 倒数一星期 平均一天要温习一个unit T.T

明天8 to 5待在med library aza aza fighting~~

威尔逻辑

執著VS熱誠VS夢想VS心
心 會累
夢想 會破滅
熱誠 會減退
執著 還是執著

正常VS不正常
人多那一邊 叫正常
人少那一邊 叫不正常
很簡單

自此

堕落ing

倒数八天

今天的prac也没自己想象的完美 很失望

在最后一分钟发现一个紧要的错误 可是太迟了

希望它不足以令我fail

最近吃喝玩乐都不协调

吃的烂 喝得少 玩太多 乐-几乎不存在

脑子也很喜欢放空

一下想念完五年后又什么打算 一下想今晚吃什么 一下担心万一明年留级要怎样fit in

然后就会提醒自己要买咖啡 熬夜去

再熬二十一天就over了

笔擦削

今天早上的practical考的不是那么理想。还记得前一晚还信心满满的，觉得这两个肯定pass。怎么知道，考试一开始就手忙脚乱，幸亏护士们都很友善，都劝我们要镇定，鼓励我们。三个钟头后出来，一个很有可能几乎是肯定不及格，一个没大碍的话可能会pass。明天还有两个。六个prac之中至少要三个及格才能拿supplementary，五个及格才能pass这门unit。现在每个人都很stress，都失去了笑容（其实念我们这个course的，唯有first yr 还会笑，其他的-我们担心不能pass这exam，third yr也忙着为十多张考试paper准备，fourth yr也一样（只是他们九月也已经考了另十多张），fifth yr clinic 没位，恐怕不能毕业）。如果今天两个都fail了，就是说接下来的四个只能fail一个才有机会进下一年。不然就这样结束了。真的很怕。。。

有人很贱，真的。为了谋取利益，竟然背着良心讨好某些人。明知那某人很爱炫耀，还故意称赞他，简直就是feed着他的ego嘛，心理学学得还蛮有用的。真的是名副其实的两面蛇。自己还说别人是非，说人家是马屁精。

考试倒数进入单数了-9 天。 我还是那么没心情去温习，没心情煮，这几个星期都不打工。

最近和屋友的关系好像有好转（不是说之前很糟），都有比较多话吧。可能是因为那次朋友拜访时得知原来我也那么讨厌这间屋子时，觉得我没那么讨人厌吧。哈哈。所以明年多半会继续和他一起住，在另一间屋子。还有，他超勤劳好吗。

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刚design完假牙 满桌笔擦削

很自然的用手掌把它们扫到一起 小心翼翼的推到桌边 扫进手掌 丢掉

这熟练的过程 忘了是什么时候学来的

多半是中学-画graf，画diagram experimen

庆祝原创

未來-黄浚源（feat云鎂鑫）


三岔口-满江浤


我不够好-詹雪琳


不可以不是你-莊靖毅


贪心你的思念-佳旺&子荧


谢谢你-钟盛忠
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wk 43

ya i know..there i go again with my word-heavy post...

monday: did injections on each other...freaky, my hands were shaking like mad the first time i went it, but the second i injected it was ok (despite the fact that i might have given my fren muscle ache coz i pierced through the huge muscle in that area instead of avoiding it)...my right of the mouth was pretty much numb for 3 hours, when i drink water, only one side feel the cold, the other side feels swollen and as if i cant close properly. and when ppl smile it's loopsided.

this week is my last week for my drilling prac- 12 hours. can feel fear, pressure and adrenaline pumping in the whole lab as everyone's drilling as much as they can to practice.
tuesday(3 hours): cant remember wat i did- few class V amalgam prep, one classic class III amalgam prep
wednesday(6 solid hours in lab): 41 mesial Class III prep, 47 MOD prep, 26 class I occ-li prep,
thurs(3 hours-totally psyched up): 14 MOD prep, pack 14 MOD, pack a 26 DOL+mesial pit, 11 mesial Class III prep
most amount of stuff ever i did in these few days
now all that's left is the prac exam next week- 9 hours (3 sessions)- everyone's totally stressing out and saying they'll most prob repeat 2nd yr again...and eveyrone's speculating and predicting what' going to come out...well we'll know soon enough...

i'm very tired-- been waking up at 6 to do my group assignment- next up is a techinician instruction sheet and it will be over by next week- starting to feel worried that eveyone's starting to study already whereas i'm still here typing all this stupid useless stuff. really unmotivated. sigh~~~~

thoughts

Jus some random thoughts

i think i will apply for an overseas placement in 5th yr. For 3 months. Maybe somewhere like singapore or malaysia. :)

having talked on the phone for 45 mins(called back home), my thoughts flew back to my malaysia home, coz when sat down, i felt this unfamiliarity for a microsecond, then the heat and the pile of notes shot me back into my room.

next yr CNY i'll be here, starting class, sigh~~
my family will be here as well...sigh...jk..yeah!!!!!!

Wk 42

I, the owner of this blog, am officially coining a new term/phrase/word

Sorry after a search on google, i saw my word.

Bulk-blogging.

Yes, i've been doing that unconsciously. Keeping a log of what to write everyday until i cant remember no more and it 'explodes'. So here goes again.

Monday
Late day start coz i dont have the lab in the morning. Afternoon was normal. Night was normal. Pretty sure i forgot sth, coz it's definitely not that normal.

Tuesday
Woke super early jus to attend a lecture, then went back to uni. As i may or may not have mentioned, my bike lock is stuck. As in even with a key in it, it still cant open. So i've finally decided. I went to the locksmith/cobbler at guild (lucky i noticed this little shop there tucked in the corner last yr). I went in hoping he can pick my lock but nooooo. I ended up having to use a bow saw to saw the chain (which was designed to prevent ppl from being able to cut it thru..=.=). So i was hiding there discreetly, trying to avoid ppl from noticing, sawing the chain bit by bit. Until the blade went blunt. And at last, with a bit of physics and material science, it finally broke. The guy was kind enough to refuse my offer to buy him a new blade. :) This certainly how i expected when i said 'please return the bike'.
and went to watch wall-e...nice movie with a lot of messages: move more, open ur eyes, be environmently friendly. and nice end credit. but we missed the bus, so had to walk back form subi to uwa

wednesday
nothing much i think. Played baddy. And my neck is still aching, which sort of affected me during the drilling lab later in the afternoon.

thursday
lab. sudden sugar craving. So, in the short one hour break at 12(had to rush back for a meeting at 1pm), went to JEAN-CLAUDE PATISSERIE and to get a new bike lock. got a free bike lock which was awesome. and JEAN-CLAUDE PATISSERIE was even more awesome...so much happiness in that small shop in the form of pastries...bought hazelnut escargot, fresh fruit danish, and almond croissant...i was a happy man boy after.
And in my psychology lecture, i got a chocolate for answering a question on oedipus complex

Fri
i pleasantly realise that the bike that i jus got back has a punctured tyre-which means a few more days of walking again. in lab, one of my tutor was encouraging us: i know what you guys are going thru. but if i can make it(refering to her studying for her examS in sydney to be recognised by aus dental board), u can too. That sort of ties in to what i recalled the night before: If i can study 11 subjects in SPM, all being '2 yr units', why cant i do this- only 7 units, half of them only a 'one sem unit'. And it reminds me of another fact that sort of struck me (still). Someone was asking in class what will happen if u only pass 2 out of the 6 prac that we had to do the week after. the lecturer, expressionless-ly, said: that's pretty much the end.

Sat
Ok, she might not have said that, but i wanted the effect. she said u might hv to repeat.
morning- went to broadway to do survey for my group assignment- pu-blic pre-ception on den-tistry and its ef-fect on oral hy-gience prac-ti-ces. boring. stood 2 hrs and manage to get 10 ppl ranging from 21 to 70+ y.o., having more older ppl, gender balance, and one asian in the 10 ppl to appropriately represent the public. i think too much.

pictures will appear soon. after it's being transferred from my camera.

summer

Mengumumkan ketibaan YAB Datuk Seri Summer a/p Nature

Diiringi oleh Datuk Suhu bin Tinggi
dan Datin Dry Gan
yg akan melawat Perth selama tiga bulan
Selamat Datang.

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summer is here...good season to be doing laudry, good season to jus stay indoor during the day and outdoor at night...

also means that i dont hv to wrap myself like a dumpling when i sleep at night

having wearing a outer wear for so long that now i feel naked without one...

and the night breeze somehow reminds me of my maternal grandma's house in kl (not mine, not my dad's mom's house)...mayb it's the temperature, or most prob the smell...but they all conjures the sound of motorbikes and cars driving pass late at night in front of my grandma's house...shit...God bless her..

I want to learn stuff

A fren of mine plans to buy guitar coz he’s been self-learning playing guitar. Another fren of mine will be getting a piano coz he wants to learn (and I taught him some basics thru msn). Yet another fren of mine bought flute(saw him polishing it in the car) and he’s learning it himself as well. I want to learn guitar and improve on my piano.

It’s going to be freakin 30 C tmr!!!!

wk 41

Sorry about the word heavy post again. Will post some photos soon or talk something else other than my life (but this blog IS about my life)

Last week has been very very very very busy. I was almost at the verge of going to ‘pengsan’ anytime soon.

Monday- Local Analgesic test & Race. I was so preoccupied with preparing for the race I totally didn’t start studying until 8pm the night before. So it was sort of an all-nighter, just that I overslept (was supposed to wake up at 2am but ended up waking up at 6) and feeling so crap after. But thank god the test turned out ok. Then was the race- had to prepare all the clues and maps and everything else needed during lunch so that I can hand it to another person to help me take charge. But who knows, they didn’t carried out everything I’ ve asked them to, station masters weren’t briefed properly and my bike’s lock cannot be opened during the race(I was devastated when I realize I cant cycle the bike for the race- which meant I had to walk all around to make sure every station is going ok-and I was seriously thinking of jus waiting at the finishing line for 1.5 hours and jus talk thru the walkie-talkie). But thank goodness I found another bike. Generally the race went ok, a few hiccups (which will be pointed out during the post mortem).

Tuesday- research test & opening+ seminar. Didn’t start studying until 11pm (seriously too tired). Luckily the morning was off for me so could still study. But the best thing which happen was – they cancelled the test(1.5 hrs before the test) and at that point of time I haven’t even gone thru half the stuff I needed to study. I was jumping for joy(but didn’t get stuck) so I headed off to the opening ceremony. After, headed back home(was going to study for the next test) but by the time I’m done doing all the random stuff it was time to go for the seminar already. Fairly interesting- about this chinese lady growing up in Australia and the racial discrimination at her time, this aboriginal person who wanted Australia to solve the problems with Aborigines before even tyring to become a multicultural country and this muslim AFL player who talked mainly about his life as a footie player (which was quite inspiring). After that, headed off to cell.

Wednesday- Talent nite-I totally slacked off refusing to do any study, recovering from the stress before. But I manage to do a few lectures in the morning before going to lab and straight on to the talent nite. Like last yr I was in charge of the music which was fun. And my fren got into the second round (if he didn’t, he had to do some random acts for a mr. popular prize). The thing ended at 10.30pm.

Thursday- drilling theory test+ s p r i n g f e a s t- that was a real all-nighter- having slept for only 2 hours(2 plus to 4 plus) trying to cram 18 lectures(which I tot was only 13 lectures initially) and only manage to finish it 10 mins before the test. Then went straight for a drilling practical class which we were all in no mood to do. I even fell asleep in the afternoon lecture(which is very interesting and not boring at all). Went home to sleep for an hour before heading back to uni for the night event. And the majority of the night I was helping to sell candy floss(simply couldn’t get it at the first few rounds- took me quite a while to do it properly-fluffy and big). Totally enjoyed the last few performances – a band performance and this guitarist (winner from the night before). Pretty much everyone was singing along with the band and I was happily making my candy floss there. Wonderful feeling. Then pack up/clean up/dismantle time- which took til 12 plus am. But it was fun. And I was forced to inhaled helium and talk…haha.

Friday- football match. Attended lab in the morning, lecture after. Then rush to the main campus to help them with the match set-up. Then rush back for another lab. After the lab, rush back again to the match to watch the semi-finals and finals. And when it ended, that was it. All the hard work for this one week. It was very enjoyable to work with everyone, even got to know a few more people during the week. And had karaoke at night- totally relaxed- but too bad I had sore throat (from drinking more than 4 cups of bubble tea throughout the week and the stress must have lowered my immune system)

Probably the week to remember for this year. Taking up all the challenge and surviving thru it was really an achievement. Really couldn’t have done it without His help.:)

Thank you

Thank you Dad,
For the last minute reading you directed me to look at before the LA test which allowed me to do the calculation
For all the random phrases you showed me when I was revising which turned out to be answers to questions
For helping out during the race esp the ending of the race
For cancelling the second test which got me totally stoked
For the inspiring seminar
For lead cell
For the wit/quick reflex/creativity when I was doing the music
For making me man again
For the motivation/awake-ness you gave me to study thru the night
For the ingenious idea of sleeping on the chair and table so that I wont sleep in the next morning
For helping me take notice of random details which turned out to be exam questions
For the CD you help her help me compile
For the wonderful night and the sweet floss stuck onto me
For the wonderful week
For that short feeling of love
For passing all the exams- and even doing very well in them
For keeping me healthy
May I be a testimony of You
Glory goes to You.

wk40

normal rambling...nothing interesting...dont waste ur time

Just finished my tax return claim...feeling quite sh*t+tired+lost+overwhelmed+doubtful+hysteric+etc these few days…crazy cramming didn’t help…thank god radiography test went ok…easier than I expected. I was fully stressed about it, as I only started studying 4pm the day before (after an awesome bbq). So stressed that I even went to buy coffee, ‘Mother’, ‘V’ and prunes jus to get my brain fired up. Totally feeling shit and cursing my way thru the night asking why I didn’t study earlier and how am I going to get thru this…I end upsleeping a bit too much more than what I planned ( 4 +hrs) so I ended up cramming 3 chapter (70 pages?) in 1.5 hr before rushing out in the morning…the next day I had a prac test which went better than I expected and when I got back my result, it was a conditional pass (I had to improve on it before getting a pass) and the freaking amalgam filling is getting onto my nerves…then the test on Thursday, thankful that someone mentioned to us this online self-assessment quiz coz the test paper was totally the same…(but I still didn’t get 100, hving done it an hr before the test)…then the interview…damn nervous…overall went ok, explored her feelings, situation, a bit jumbled up, but summary should be good enough…only one thing, I didn’t introduce my name and ask hers…=.=’’’...had kfc's favourites bowl a lunch- that was the only fun thing the whole

Cell group’s not fun anymore…I think I got too familiar with them…having such a cell leader obviously didn’t help (sarcastic, bossy, queen-of-the-world attitude)… and the fact everyone is so bubbly and oh-so enthusiastic disgust me…my focus changed quite a bit from when I joined them to now… coming with reluctance (and un-open-hearted-ness) and going home feeling emptier than when I came…and I think I’ve sort of drifted away from Him…got quite confused with some stuff which I seriously cant be bother trying to look deeper at this time…

I’m still trying to figure out how I’m going to use this short weekend to prepare for my 3 test, mcw and my own life.

I’ve fallen asleep a few times this week with everything still on my bed, not brushing my teeth, lights still on…jus too tired to be bothered...

星期六的夜晚

前十二个小时：
忙着amazing race的trial run-踏遍大学校园

前三个小时：
从意大利餐馆回来。和教会小组朋友们庆生。（应该在朋友家弄housewarming-很对不起他）
真的不觉那间的tiramisu有很好吃咯，kuih lapis都更好吃

前两小时：
一口气看了很多部落格：
朋友们的
一位在英国念书的陌生留学生的
一位正在一间全女校的陌生男老师的
一位大马著名导演的
一位在民都鲁打工的陌生古晋新闻工作人
好几篇没被更新的
等
可是心里还是有那股空虚
尝试注入陶吉吉的歌（哦耳机坏了半边）
希望空洞可以被填满

再过33小时：
有个测验-必及格的测验
(是的，我没假期）
我还没开始念
唔知点死~
我妈就好玩啦-飞到大老远旅行
可是她也应该好好享受一番咯

真的不好意思
可是我真的很享受这种emo-ness
这篇读者是不是念得很乱/很累。。。

9-1

Finally finish typing up notes which i have to READ and memorise for tmr's test...talk about last minute studying...

Note to self- please please please next yr WHEN you're in third yr...set pretend mid-sems and follow it (shocked myself how much i've studied for this one yr unit- none...)

(i was close to kneeling down and begging myself to study the other day)

Another note to self- read 'note to self's

With the stuffs coming up this weekend(eg dinners, lunch?, trial run for 'amazing race'), sunday's going to be crazy...

and multicutural week on wk 41...

but i hv faith

1 down, 6 assessments 2 assignments to go...

Square root of three

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three


The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic


I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality


When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three
As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer


We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed


-heard from Harold and Kumar- by David ???

Study break

So my study break has been kinda gone pass already...did nothing, well nothing to do with my studies anyway...did everything there is to the multicultural week coming up, doing laundry 3 days straight and still hvnt finish(i think i'm jus trying to escape from studying)...


Got colour pencils!!!!- now i just need a shapener...


Tried to look for mooncake but found none(in the city)- first ever yr didnt eat mooncake(as far as i can remember)...a bit sad lo....


I WANT TO GO ARALEUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mandurah retreat

Last Sunday me and my cell group went to Mandurah. For a 3 days 2 nights stay. The house was humongous and nice. Facing the sea, with a jakuzi and a tennis court. We brought wii, taboo, cranium to play. Cooked bak kut teh, curry and pasta. And of course not forgetting the time of solitude during which I manage to get some questions answered. One thing I regret, I didn’t get to stroll along the beach…
And I miss home cooked food after those few days, well food cooked by myself anyway.

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