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4th wk in

Wow- going into the month of august already. So fast. Really insane.
Some photos that i took in the city last week:












Found some awesome videos: (ok, all of them are related to Simpsons)





and this for the insane intro bit.



Anyway, nice day today. For once I felt confident for a test- maybe partly coz I studied for it like 2 weeks ago and did more. Some stuff I got was wrong but still should pass- 65%.

Clinic was quite good. first patient complimented me that I would be a very good dentist- very pedantic, and other adjectives (gentle, soft?). but pedantic? I was taken aback coz from what I remember when I first saw the word and checked wiki, it had a bad connotation- but considering the patient’s English as second language background, she might have meant something else. But meh, I’m still happy. Second patient was quite good too. Manage to clean almost half the mouth in 2 hrs. a great success for me considering it involves traumatizing the gum and awkward angles.

All I feel like doing now is jus to watch a movie instead of doing I should be doing i.e. studying and sleeping.

3rd wk in

“17 … satisfactory MO amalgam”

I scribbled that down. At least I’m doing something. Something that will take my mind off it. Still cant believe that just happened. I’m jus going to pretend nothing happened and go home and cry. Looking around, other people are still doing their own things, well that’s one less patient for him.

“16…”
Oh yes, I’m scribing for someone.
“Satisfactory PFM crown”

A nurse walked past peeping in checking if everything is going alright. Yea, she was kind. Very empathetic. She was trying to console me when the patient left. I know I was holding back my ‘disappointment’ then. And I said something stupid just to take the attention off me- the lights couldn’t be switched off. Pretending nothing happened, I started tidying my stuff. And she and another nurse started talking to me. Saying how this system is retarded- not that exact word- tutor working non-stop, having more tutors to supervise. And suggest that maybe I call the person back again.

“15-4-3”
“yup?”
“a bridge- abutment, pontic, abutment”

I could have done stuff for him. Like at least a restoration. That sharp edge on his 12, that black 13 root didn’t even got checked. But I cant coz I didn’t get my plans signed off. And the tutor still justified his actions after the event, saying it was 10 mins coz mine wasn’t a priority and if the patient couldn’t even wait, it’s better to leave now rather halfway thru the treatment. Now he’s gone and I can't even do a thing. My patient and I were ‘connecting’ well before that. He was a pomme. Went to war- talked about his tank caught in a firing range, becoming a cook after that, coming to wa, working in a mining site, handling explosives. But then what happened after he went to the toilet? I’m still shocked. From that.

“12 normal”
“sound?”
“that’s the word”

He came back, I went over to sit him down and he said:
“I don’t think I want to wait anymore"
At first I still don’t quite understand what he meant, if I understood him correctly. Then he reached over to take his jacket and umbrella that we’ve said I would remind him to take.
“it’s not your fault” he said to me
“cant you jus wait for a while more? I’ll do a scale and clean, might as well, since you’re here”
“nah mate, don’t bother, have a good life” and he pat on me and started walking off.
“ I'm not coming back so don’t bother calling me” he said before disappearing out the door.
I was left dumbstruck, and nurses started to come over asking happened.

“21..”
“sorry, what was 11”
“sound, 21 satisfactory MO composite”

Maybe I should just concentrate on this instead.

First week back

Went for indigenous/ multicultural lectures. Did presentation( i know it’s jus the first week). One more assignment on top of the 3 or 4 that we’re having. Today was a break- but I had to go to arrange my patients- get them in so that I can work them asap. I’m still a bit in the holiday mood, havn’t quite settled down yet, not yet found that mood to study yet. And 1 presentation, 3 tests, within the next 2 weeks. Sigh.

Anyway- awesome videos that I found.

The climb


I thought she knew


Poker Face


You are the music of my heart- multilanguage


Breaking free- multilanguage

5/10

So, I’m back. after 2 weeks of hellish exam. Thank God i'm still alive. Started off by cramming pathology for the whole study week, exam on sat; study orthodontics for one day then exam; study general medicine for one day and exam(that one was insane - going from kidney to liver to blood vessel); then back to staring at microscopy slides and bottle; pharmacology 4 days after (that one was the worst- all the drug names and stuff- might hv failed that one- but hopefully it’s not a must-pass exam) and one day for dentures, crowns and bridges(that one was ok - coz even tho it covered everything from every single 20+ lectures, it was rather general- like list 2 (out of the 5-6 in the lectures) of advantage/disadvantage/indication/contra-indications)…and after that exam- everyone was high. Don’t think anyone else will appreciate this short break as much as we will. I'm actually sick of staying awake to study- but now i'm waking up at 10am- because i can afford to.

And that was all just a glimpse of wat’s to come next semester. 10 units + patients(I’m actually so sick of seeing patients). But hey, I’m half way thru- (just half way- unlike other people-either almost done or one year left).

2 weeks of holiday will start next week. Got one group assignment, assignment and online assessment to do. And I need to go back into clinic tomorrow to check on my patient who came in today for emergency (a fifth year student told me that through facebook- how cool..lol).

Random photos from the whole sem+ this exam:

we had to bend wires- according to the shape drawn on the paper- with different sizes

Got myself awesome (-ly cheap) highlighters to coordinate my clinic sessions

candies from royal perth hospital where i had lectures once a week (blue stuff are called clouds and they are awesome and they are only 5 cents each)

i bent that for myself coz i cudnt be bother doing any work in the lab

more lollies

the very last exercise we had to do for orthodontics wire-bending

studying for pathology- slides and bottles likes:

adenocarcinoma of the colon

fatty liver due to alcohol consumption

kidneys

dunno why i cant drink coffee anymore- got stomachache twice for drinking coffee

yea... i pretty much dont have a life besides study. oh ya- a classic comment:

My life sucks! Oh wait, it can't coz I dont even have one...

talentime

ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHH
I WANT TO WATCH TALENTIME
Why am I in perth!!!!!!!!!!!!

So why am I so crazy you ask?
It’s a new movie by yasmin ahmad (if you don’t know who she is, you can GO DIE or watch this multi-award winning ad the love of tan hong ming
The storyline is interesting- awesome music, awesome new casts,
Portrays lives of the different races in msia (something I’m close to)
It’s by yasmin ahmad!!- there’s gonna be loads of tears and laughters.
I’m already crying….

Her news
The official website - check out the 'behind the scene'
Her ad for some Singapore family department -watch it 

trailers for talentime

i'm going to get all her past movies and watch them all- especially 'Muallaf'

and if you've never heard sepet...pls go far far away from me 

photos

Have been playing with picasa editing tool. And lovin some of the photos.

how i feel at times...and loving this vid...

and 25 hrs today!!

graduation

看了朋友的毕业照 很想马上毕业
戴着四方帽、礼服 扮美美 到处走透透取景拍照 uni,河畔,公园
让父母骄傲一下 深知他们供我读书不易 我也成人成材了
一定要拍很多很多照片 难得一生一次（一次也够了）
同班同学一起毕业 60几个 经历五年的风风雨雨
朋友们祝贺 又在拍照
手里捧着一束花、一个洋娃娃
再拍一张正式（破口袋）的毕业照 那些手里捧着文凭卷 书架为背景的那一种
可惜没四方帽丢
一定会很开心 很幸福 所以要拍照留念
所以要买个好相机

再熬多三年 再挨多三年 就要到我了

*灵感自某女性朋友的照片 所以所想象的难免有点出入

so i've finally updated.

meh

2 months roughly

between which, i've

moved to my new place

loved and loving slumdog millionaire

went thru phases of inactivity 

stressed out over studies

there's really nothing interesting...

i shud go sleep

黑色星期五

黑色星期五。
莫名的空虚，生活少了什么似的。
我不知道别人还怎么懂呢？所以就把它挂在心上某一条心弦。
家里很静。想离家出走。骑脚车，搭巴士到city也好。
最后还是决定留在家。
脑子空空的，自然会找东西装。
自己，家人，朋友，生活，性格，未来，感情，计划，金钱。。。
今天难得4小时break，和一班朋友到nando's 和gelato打发时间。发现：
原来自己背后可以发生那么多事。被人讲闲话也不会知道。
原来人可以那么‘两面’。
原来那么多人可以讨厌那么多人。
原来那么小的事也会惹人讨厌。
我则静静坐一旁聆听，不希望被别人影响。

要找爱好，培养新兴趣。
学新的语言，学吉他，学photoshop 我都想

看了一幅照片 顿时想到北京紫禁城 看清明上河图
想一日回到古时代 看看生活是怎么样
我不只想要travel 我还想time travel

snapshot of a week (2 weeks ago)

Monday- woke up to go to lecture even though it’s Labour Day.Had 4 hours of lectures for one unit. I slept a lot in the lecture coz I didn’t get enough from the night before (wedding). Lunch break then another four hours lecture for one unit. I slept a lot there as well. I think in total I slept more in the lecture than I did the night before. Couldn’t go to the lab to get pliers coz the nurses are on holiday.

Tuesday- had a lecture then went to clinic for caries risk assessment. We had to spit out saliva to do some tests on them, then had the teeth coloured to see plaque. Then rush back to another lecture before lunch. After that I had the afternoon off coz my group wasn’t rostered in the lab session. So a lot of us went to the other section of the lab to do lab work that is due soon. And we had to pack up before 2pm coz that’s when the 1st yrs come in for their lab. And I pretty much wasted the rest of the afternoon. Good thing I manage to bend the wire during lunch, coz I also pretty much wasted my night doing nothing.

Wed- had a lecture then went to lab for 3 hours bending wire- much easier this time coz the wire’s thinner- damn proud of myself when the tutor saw it and said 10/10- but I still hv 4 more to go before the next session. Then after lunch, we went to the hospital in the city for lecture. 3 hours-on diabetes, endocrine disease and hepatobilliary disease (I cant even pronounce it properly). Then badminton from 7.30- 10.30 –had a good time sweating out- I suck – went with a fren; met old frens; made new fren- and I need more exercise.. TRIED to view a powerpoint on ‘radiographs’ but failed- ended up in facebook.

Thurs- woke up to a lecture which I partly slept thru. Then went to lab to drill teeth for crowns. Did ok, stuff up some areas, nothing major. Then went for a radiography tutorial. Fairly interesting tutor. Then went home. Spent the whole night trying to reshuffle the 21GB of stuff (notes, lectures, exams papers) upper years gave us. And the whole night was lost again.

Fri- 2 hours of lecture, then 1 hour break (which we spent in the lab), then to the pharmacology lecture for 2 hours, 1 hr lunch break then pathology lab and lecture. Loving pathology- at first but now….
Fresher’s welcome on- housemates had few frens over for pre’s. I had beer which I dont quite like. so now I am going off- to get myself not drunk- to see what other people to get themselves drunk. Sorry I jus don’t believe in alcohol.
Went home early, without a sip of alcohol. And now it’s 1am. My housemates are still at the place- talking to some postgrad student about ortho. And I’m dead tired. Sleepy.

Sat- woke up at 10. Played around(read: did nothing). Had meatballs from IKEA with instant noodle. Then finally got myself down to do some serious work after 40 mins of HIMYM. Jus when I was so engrossed in typing my notes, I jus realized I need to be at work at 5 and not 5.30. So I rush like mad, good thing there was a bus coming soon-ish and I got there on time. Work was boring-as usual. Got back at around 11pm, talked to my housemates about dentistry (exams and cramming), language (how I would love to be an interpreter), dancing, how my year don’t share their notes. Which reminds me of a conversation I had about how money may become a drive when we’re out practicing, despite the initial noble intention – the greater good of population’s health. How ortho is so much easier compared to other specialization coz ur patient’s would be highly motivated, their mouth would be healthy when u see them and you’ll be earning big bucks.
Now I’m downloading slumdog millionaire OST. Some of them are jus awesome!
Again, I should go sleep.

Sunday- went to church. After that had lunch- mee pok- which was crap at this place near Winthrop shopping centre. Service was awful. We (well me) cant be bother, so we wrote our own order and gave the list to the boss. And we had to wait forever for the food to come out. I was THIS close to walking into the kitchen and cooking it myself. And the food is not even that nice. And it took forever to bring us the bill. I took the liberty of collecting the money and then going to the boss and demanded the bill. Damn dodgy la..
Didn’t do much after that. Ate subway for dinner in my backyard. It was a good break away from the house, staring the laptop/books. Then I cycled to IGA, thoroughly enjoyed the trip away from home. Bought fruits.
Now I’m TRYING to read my lab manual which is very very very very very boring. And I still have a few video demo to go thru before my lab tomorrow. AND review my notes in second year on how to give an injection (LA). AND I’M FREAKIN SLEEPY!!!!

1. Alang-alang mandi biar guna sabun.
2. Bapak borek, anak rintik, emaknya pasti petak-petak.
3. Belakang parang kalau diasah lagikan tajam, kepala manusia kalau diasah pasti botak. <
4. Berapa berat mata memandang, berat lagi seguni beras.
5. Biar lambat asalkan lembab.
6. Biar putih tulang, jangan kuning gigi.
7. Carik-carik bulu ayam lama-lama jadi shuttlecock.
8. Cubit paha kanan, peha kiri tak rasa apa-apa pun.
9. Dari mana hendak ke mana, kenapa kau tanya, menyibuk pula.
10. Di mana ada gula di situ adalah gula-gula.
11. Di mana bumi dipijak, di situ ada kesan kena pijak.
12. Diam-diam ubi berisi, diam-diam orang bisu.
13. Gajah mati meninggalkan gading, harimau mati meninggalkan belang, manusia mati meninggal dunia.
14. Habis madu sepah dikitar semula.
15. Sedikit-sedikit lama-lama tinggal sikit.
16. Harapkan pagar, pagar tak boleh harap. '
17. Hendak seribu daya, tak hendak tak apa.
18. Hidung tak mancung, gigi macam kereta sorong.
19. Hidup segan mati ditanam.
20. Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik kalau hari tak hujan.
21. Jauh di mata sakit di hati.
22. Jika kail panjang sejengkal beli le yang panjang sikit kalau nak ngail di laut.(beli le pukat tunda lagi baik)
23. Kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang simpan esok pagi.
24. Kalah jadi abu, menang jadi arang, seri jadi abu bakar.
25. Ke mana tumpahnya kuah kalau tidak ke bawah.
26. Kecil-kecil cili padi, kecil lagi biji cili.
27. Lembu punya susu, cap teko dapat nama.
28. Makan hati berulam jantung dengan jeruk buah pinggang dan usus masak kicap.
29. Masuk telinga kiri, keluar telinga kanan, tersumbat kat mulut, meleleh kat hidung.
30. Membujur lalu melintang pukang.
31. Orang memberi kita merasa, orang tak beri kita paksa dia.
32. Pandu cermat, jiwa Kassim Selamat.
33. Patah tumbuh hilang report polis.
34. Pemuda harapan bangsa, pemudi tiang negara, pondan tiang telepon.
35. Sambil menyelam tengok kapal selam.
36. Sebab pulut santan binasa, sebab mulut habis pulut.
37. Sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit inikan pula makanan di dalam mulut.
38. Sehari selembar benang lama-lama benang habis.
39. Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya tak dapat masuk olimpik juga.
40. Sesal dahulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian cukai pendapatan.
41. Sudah gaharu cendana pula, sudah digaru gatal pula.
42. Sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga, kemudian ditimpa bendul, kemudian ditimpa rumah, kemudian $B!D!D!D(B.
43. Tiada rotan pelempang berguna juga.
44. Waktu kecil menjadi kawan, sudah besar menjadi lawan, bila tua penyakit sawan.

早. Woke up 10 plus. Stressed out looking for houses- the same feeling like last yr- suffocated and helpless.Ended up having talked into sharing a house with 2 other people. One of which is my coursemate (which I really tried my best to avoid sharing the house last yr- coz I hv problems listening to him (and it’s not jus me)...sigh~~) and his friend. So there’ll be 3 dents and an engineer. 3 ABC and 1 me.

Arvo. Went out at arnd 1pm plus to avoid open house (for prospective tenants). I even kept everything and make the house look like no one came back yet- coz I kinda told my agent I’ll be back on the 20^th. Went city to get a sim card, recharge card, international calling card. Had hungry jacks for lunch. Came back, washed my mattress protector, blanket sheet etc. Then slept for 2 hours .

Malam.  Cooked ravioli again. Passed the stuff to my sis. Hope she’s doing ok. Came back fiddle around with nothing. Got a nasty surprise- 2dvd (songs and photos) I copied using another laptop cant be read on my laptop…T.T

I’ve realized wat’s wrong with how I view things- I always look at things from a ‘big picture’ point of view and trying to squeeze all the details possible- which jus makes things messy. Like how I write stuff and take photos.

King’s park got burnt- photo soon 

I was in the shopping centre the other day, and I heard this Malay song which immediately caught my attention. Hence I quickly jotted down a few words of the lyrics sung and went home to google it. And I found this (ignore the video-it’s crap):

Rimas-Fabulous Cats


and one day I will translate the lirik-lirik into lyrics according to ‘meaning, form and specials’(it’s an art)