1. Alang-alang mandi biar guna sabun.
2. Bapak borek, anak rintik, emaknya pasti petak-petak.
3. Belakang parang kalau diasah lagikan tajam, kepala manusia kalau diasah pasti botak. <
4. Berapa berat mata memandang, berat lagi seguni beras.
5. Biar lambat asalkan lembab.
6. Biar putih tulang, jangan kuning gigi.
7. Carik-carik bulu ayam lama-lama jadi shuttlecock.
8. Cubit paha kanan, peha kiri tak rasa apa-apa pun.
9. Dari mana hendak ke mana, kenapa kau tanya, menyibuk pula.
10. Di mana ada gula di situ adalah gula-gula.
11. Di mana bumi dipijak, di situ ada kesan kena pijak.
12. Diam-diam ubi berisi, diam-diam orang bisu.
13. Gajah mati meninggalkan gading, harimau mati meninggalkan belang, manusia mati meninggal dunia.
14. Habis madu sepah dikitar semula.
15. Sedikit-sedikit lama-lama tinggal sikit.
16. Harapkan pagar, pagar tak boleh harap. '
17. Hendak seribu daya, tak hendak tak apa.
18. Hidung tak mancung, gigi macam kereta sorong.
19. Hidup segan mati ditanam.
20. Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik kalau hari tak hujan.
21. Jauh di mata sakit di hati.
22. Jika kail panjang sejengkal beli le yang panjang sikit kalau nak ngail di laut.(beli le pukat tunda lagi baik)
23. Kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang simpan esok pagi.
24. Kalah jadi abu, menang jadi arang, seri jadi abu bakar.
25. Ke mana tumpahnya kuah kalau tidak ke bawah.
26. Kecil-kecil cili padi, kecil lagi biji cili.
27. Lembu punya susu, cap teko dapat nama.
28. Makan hati berulam jantung dengan jeruk buah pinggang dan usus masak kicap.
29. Masuk telinga kiri, keluar telinga kanan, tersumbat kat mulut, meleleh kat hidung.
30. Membujur lalu melintang pukang.
31. Orang memberi kita merasa, orang tak beri kita paksa dia.
32. Pandu cermat, jiwa Kassim Selamat.
33. Patah tumbuh hilang report polis.
34. Pemuda harapan bangsa, pemudi tiang negara, pondan tiang telepon.
35. Sambil menyelam tengok kapal selam.
36. Sebab pulut santan binasa, sebab mulut habis pulut.
37. Sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit inikan pula makanan di dalam mulut.
38. Sehari selembar benang lama-lama benang habis.
39. Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya tak dapat masuk olimpik juga.
40. Sesal dahulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian cukai pendapatan.
41. Sudah gaharu cendana pula, sudah digaru gatal pula.
42. Sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga, kemudian ditimpa bendul, kemudian ditimpa rumah, kemudian $B!D!D!D(B.
43. Tiada rotan pelempang berguna juga.
44. Waktu kecil menjadi kawan, sudah besar menjadi lawan, bila tua penyakit sawan.

早. Woke up 10 plus. Stressed out looking for houses- the same feeling like last yr- suffocated and helpless.Ended up having talked into sharing a house with 2 other people. One of which is my coursemate (which I really tried my best to avoid sharing the house last yr- coz I hv problems listening to him (and it’s not jus me)...sigh~~) and his friend. So there’ll be 3 dents and an engineer. 3 ABC and 1 me.

Arvo. Went out at arnd 1pm plus to avoid open house (for prospective tenants). I even kept everything and make the house look like no one came back yet- coz I kinda told my agent I’ll be back on the 20^th. Went city to get a sim card, recharge card, international calling card. Had hungry jacks for lunch. Came back, washed my mattress protector, blanket sheet etc. Then slept for 2 hours .

Malam.  Cooked ravioli again. Passed the stuff to my sis. Hope she’s doing ok. Came back fiddle around with nothing. Got a nasty surprise- 2dvd (songs and photos) I copied using another laptop cant be read on my laptop…T.T

I’ve realized wat’s wrong with how I view things- I always look at things from a ‘big picture’ point of view and trying to squeeze all the details possible- which jus makes things messy. Like how I write stuff and take photos.

King’s park got burnt- photo soon 

I was in the shopping centre the other day, and I heard this Malay song which immediately caught my attention. Hence I quickly jotted down a few words of the lyrics sung and went home to google it. And I found this (ignore the video-it’s crap):

Rimas-Fabulous Cats


and one day I will translate the lirik-lirik into lyrics according to ‘meaning, form and specials’(it’s an art)

second last day

internet's back on- hence the sudden increase in post...

worked last night- and i was sick- runny nose. and i had to look down to actually do my work, so it was disgusting, good thing it wasnt busy. should have jus called in sick, but i didnt know it was that bad and because i have never turn up for work sick so i wasnt expecting that...

going home tomorrow
but it feels unbelievable- like wow, i'm going home tomorrow, so soon...
does that mean i'm happy or reluctant to go back?
and with everything i have to do before i actually go back- do all the laundry, clean up my room, buy the stuff i need to buy, finish all my food and make sure everything is off/closed (electricity, water, windows, doors) -i dont have enough time
oh wells, i can always not sleep and sleep on the plane- departing 1940 reaching 23?? at brunei

scare the hell out of me when i checked all the post i posted- they were gone- all because the date format- eg for 1st dec instead of the normal 01/12/08 i had to type in 12/01/08 (the american style) ...so i had to go jan 12th to change it...get it?

GG

I’m smiling. Never have been happier. In the middle of the night. I’ve finished Gossip Girl Season 1. Ok I know I’m kinda behind already.
But, never thought I was gonna say this, that series is awesome. No wonder it got so many ppl hooked.
I have to say E10 and E16 is the best- for different reasons.
Backstabbing, friendship, cheating, love, peer pressure, lives of the rich, family etc.
Cant wait till the whole of season 2 finishes before I start another few days of non-stop roller coaster ride.
But for now, season one will have to suffice.
XOXO

On a side note, made me realize something- being materialistic is only for the rich, and about having a brother’s love.

I’m kinda enjoying the no-one-else-at-home scene atm. No one to be worried about, can totally go into the kitchen late at night and make the din and not worry (but my neighbour), having clean up after myself only, blasting the music loudly etc.
But I know I wont survive living alone for a year…

and working in summer sucks- coz they crowd never stops- so for the first time, i finished at 10.45pm(instead of 9.45) and reach home around 12am-gg..

out!!- celebrating

I am freaking happy… very happy…VERY HAPPY!! Thank God Thank God Thank God…
I was like praying hard when I was checking results, but it wasn’t out yet
Until I decided to go back to sleep and someone called me to ask how my results were
I was terrified before the exams thinking I might jus fail
During exam I was calmer after seeing the paper thinking there might a chance of me passing
And now the result is out
And He is gracious..

night out

I did something crazy. Wore my pyjamas, walked out of the house (a hard thing to do considering I hv (mild) OCD) and started taking photos.

(i stood up before the shutter closed off- so there's nothing spooky)

我屋友离开了。 搭着的士。 剩我一个人在家。 现在轮到我开始清理房间、收拾行李 准备回家。倒数4天左右，我就会离开这___（自行填充）之地。
这是用屋友的keyboard打的。

刚看完I am legend。戏里主角是世上唯一一个生存者。一种莫名的感觉在心中顿时萌起。顿时觉得自己很孤单，朋友一个一个回去了，屋友也即将离开，世间仿佛也仅剩我一个人。 呼吸开始困难，情绪开始不定。自己就好像随时就会崩溃。

smiley face

Can’t believe I missed the smiley face-

from http://martins-skywalk.blogspot.com/2008/12/venus-jupiter-moon-smiley-face.html

phone

Talked to my mum just now after 3 weeks

It appears that I’m going to kl- due to miscommunication
I’m suppose to buy sth for my grandpa when I go see him in KL
Exchange rate dropped again- to 2.2
My fren’s mum passed away 2 weeks ago after battling for 5-6 yrs
My bro now exercises ‘his rights’ in not doing housechores
My sis is finishing SPM soon and she’s coming over next yr
I’m leaving this place on the 12/13 dec
I’m coming back to this place on the 18th jan
Within which I’ll get my driver’s license

and i jus watched the kite runner...nice

情绪酝酿到暴了才上来
是荷尔蒙失调吧
脑袋空空的 自己喜欢无中生有

人比人 气死人
和他比
比财产 比身世 比生活 比他拥有的
比牙齿 比幽默 比色盲 比酷 比社交圈子
比得没完没了
结果比输了
会恨他 还是远离

原来我不色盲
对颜色还很执著
对颜色看得很清楚
有黄，黑，褐，白

我白色朋友写到：
“Drilling 这门东西 面对的不是偶尔的挫折
而是反复的失败 直到成功为止
这 就费了一年的练习与情绪上的控制
或许 是祂有话想说
难道 是我一直以我学业的成就拟定我的身份、价值
而忘了我是创世者的孩儿这身份
难道 我太依靠自己的能力 相信自己
而不依赖祂
我要反复的提醒自己
it is at those points that we need to depend on him the most; to surrender it all
我学会了 我不是因我成就而存在 这些成就也不是我
我的身份 不会因为我露宿街头 而改变
因为我依然是祂宠爱的那一个”

1030pm 刚打完工
在同样的巴士站下
只是这次 巴士站旁的酒店
举办着我们牙科生一年一度的晚宴
欲上楼拜访 最后还是放弃了
快乐这么近 可是那么远

原来 我犯了那么多滔天大罪
还总是自圆其说
所欲 物质上的享受
所思 色
所求 人比人 比死人
其实都不符游戏规则
要比就和祂比 是比不赢的

接受还是改变 我问了好久
事情的真实性无可否认了
接受了又怎么样 改变的话要怎么样
我选择了逃避

我dirty linens 都摆出来了
Cabinet里的skeleton 也有葬身之地了
这住宅区不愿意容我了
要是人生可以更新
唯有这样作为象征
谢谢大家的支持

不许哭

作词：管启源 作曲：汤小糠

进一步 或 退一步
结局一样是未知数

被羡慕 也被忌妒
当我的手被你握住

想起当初如何被守护
尝尽了甜头也吃过了苦
翻着回忆不断的阅读
我们付出 如此投入

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
被你放弃不是最痛的输

也许对你温柔的拥抱还有贪图
我应该满足
我非常满足
我已准备觉悟

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
因为至少我们曾经被祝福

如果留下伤口要微笑着康复

我应该满足
我非常满足

4th of 10 DONE

It has been a custom for me to shout out


I'M



FREEEE..

but this time...wasnt that emotional
no tossing of the 'square hat'
no 3 shouts of 'merdeka'

Tired- 2 hrs of sleep the night before
Now relieved and there's no more cramming to do
Lesson learnt- will explore that some other day
Things to do after this- Heaps

Current state

back is hurting due to back posture when studying

eyes still sting

diarrhoea this morning- went to the toilet 3 times but amazingly healed after the exam(I bet it has sth to do with stress)

starting to panic for my next exam coz I didn’t know there was that much to study until last night when I checked- well good thing I suppose, at least I didn’t stress out that much

tired, exhausted. Let’s see I slept 5 hrs on 16th, 2 on 17th, 4 hrs on 18th, going to sleep 6 hrs (make that 5 now) on 19th, prob 2 hrs on 20th and I will be free….

Internet and msn is bad for me…

Pictures around(yes I was very very bored, tired, to the point of insanity):

Bird's eye view of my table- not like a bird can fly in my room

water bottle, watch, chewie, toilet paper (i had flu, nothing else), lollies

levitating laptop, lamp, lecture lnotes,

if only lecture notes were filled with random photos

my file- change my notes inside after every exam

a white thing...

my beloved lamp which has followed me for 2 yrs...

it was 3 remaning- now 1 left!!!!

yes i pretty much chucked everything onto my bed and then put everything back onto the floor when i need the bed...everyday

energy drinks- no i didnt finish it in one night- balanced it with coffee

starburst...mmmm..sugar...

ice cream.....*drooollllllssssssss........coffee flavour+chocolate-coated almond

I am extremely ‘hardworking’ during exam times ho…coming here everyday…~.~’’’

5/7

下午时分 – 我疯了！曾一时想过宁可学怎么考试时候扮昏倒。
晚饭- 烧鸭饭。苦中的甘（还有咸，卤） :)
深夜- 心情稳定下来了…可能是因为没上msn，没被朋友stress；可能是刚才洗了厕所（明天inspection）; 多半是祂的呵护。
一把鼻涕，一把highlighter。
现在要把past paper 看完，答案念过。
准备睡两小时。起来一杯咖啡，把全部东东在看一遍。
一年worth的东西，三小时匆完...

shoooooooooot

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Again. Tired, mentally.
It’s as if it’s neverending, I can never be ready enough for the exam
Jus when I thought I can take it, one small little detail blew me off.
7 hours straight in Reid library, highlighting pages after pages
Trying to memorise everything that I have to
Procedures after procedures,
Concepts after concepts,
Numbers after numbers,
And I am going to give up on anatomy and material science- and jus pray it wont come up
All this jus to learn the theory of making fake teeth.

And people. I hate people. Homo sapienS
People who jus talk non-stop on the phone trying to share stuff. I need to study.
People who stress out and complain to me. and make me stress out. I need to study.
People who jus talk to me on msn coz we hvn’t talked for long. I would love to but I need to study.
People who ask for my help. I did. But that’s wasting my time, and it may jus backfire this time and people don always appreciate. I need to study.

One more day, one more night
And it’s exam time.
Shud I do an all nighter tonight and tomorrow night?
Considering I’ve been sleeping very little and the body has taken a toll
And I jus got this email reminding me how shit my health is atm- acne vulgaris , liver intoxication, dorsalgia, ..
I hvnt even started on the partials yet and the past papers too. Apparently they kill.
So people are panicking, and words like
F***, S***, die,
screwed, kill, cry,
suddenly came into our dictionary.
AND we lived happily ever after.

conjuntions

Had a long rest after exam which was ok coz luckily I manage to cram (ok fine ‘RECAP’) ALL 24 lectures in 2 hrs just before exams which got me late for exams but it was still ok coz I don’t think they really care as long as u got enough time to finish and there WAS more than enough time coz ppl started leaving after 1.5 hr when the whole exam was meant to be 3 hrs jus like my next exam on Monday which I hv no clue whatsoever and it freakin involves a lot of memorizing- the whole year’s worth of lectures which would be fine if the lectures given was understandable, straightforward, INFORMATION-CONTAINING but noooo..the lecturer jus went on whatever he liked, jumping around topics (‘in retrospect’ and ‘leading to’) talking about nothing and he expects us to know everything he knows by reading the book he asked us to read which is quite shit as well coz like my fren said ‘is all over the place and talks about nothing-jus like the lecturer’ so the book has been there since the beginning of the year collecting dust and it will continue to collect dust throughout this weekend coz I m not going to read that freakin book but instead read the 3 compilations of notes that obtained from 3 different upper yr sources(yes ppl area kind enough to do that and I m recording now all the papers we’re hving coz we don’t GET past yr papers, like wtf) totaling 200 pages? (ok fine I’m exaggerating, so sue me) and I hv to memorise everything single detail on how to make a fake denture which I SUPPOSE will help next yr when we actually start making them on real patients and it’s going to be freaky coz it’s like REAL~ but anway..dont want to think about it now, got more important things to stress like when am I going to go back end of this yr coz, yes, I hvnt book my ticket to go back and I cant now since I’m hving exams and going all the way to the city to book it is an utter waste of time which i can utilize to study and speaking of which mayb I shud stop here and go sleep and wake up early tmr morning to do some studying for the next 3 days…
*gasp air*

我只想闭上眼睛 5 分钟也好
看完6 个lecture 就可以休息了 可是这几个lecture至少也有50页 而且全部都是要背的
明天醒来还要把全部在看一边 因为真的是不记得
周末-也没得休息 因为还要赶另一张考卷
刘力杨的《靠不靠谱》 不知道听了几次了
因为喜欢副歌的部分 因为没新歌听 因为旧歌听厌了
最后两瓶鸡精 明天一瓶 拜一一瓶 家里带来的一盒就这样完了

我不知道 我不知道 我不知道
我很累 眼睛很‘刺’
对自己很失望 自己ego放弃了id
我不想睡 睡了时间就没了
明天的试卷是最简单的其中一张 可是为什么我还那么stress 不是我一个罢了
还有好多好多要念的 又超无聊（关于怎样做research）念又念不进
真的很想放弃就算了 可是不可以不pass
开始饿了 可是最近好像饿惯了 酸了一下就没事了
我真的要睡了 很烦

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结果睡了四个小时 起来是还狂k书
考试还好 不太难 多靠上天
下午睡了四小时弥补