mi mama

Yesterday I read someone’s blog. He was talking about his mom (who died 50 days ago) and reminiscing what his mother had done for him all her life. Really touching. Made me so the sad the other night and made me miss my mom also.

>>百善孝为先>>

My mom’s from KL. She lived quite a poor life. I remember she used to tell us how hard her life was. Every morning she had to wake up super early to go out to my grandma’s stall to sell food- porridge, noodle…(To tell you the truth I really don’t know much about her life when she was young, I guess I am just too ignorant or maybe I just never really cared)

>>哀哀父母为我拘劳>>

Fast forwarding to now, as in after I was born. Well, as I spent most of the time at home (call me boring or lifeless..watever), I really grew close to my mum especially when I was in Form 1 and 2 (which were in the evening session). When I am bored I would go to the kitchen (when she is in the kitchen obviously), to look at her cooking (I guess that’s why I can cook quite well now…hehe) and talk to her. Talk about what? I don’t know, just anything, can’t really remember. We used to subscribe Reader’s Digest and when she read a very funny joke she would share with me (and even though I finished reading the whole book a few weeks ago when it just arrived, I would just laugh). Sometimes, when I finished my tuition (yes, I also went to tuition) in the morning at around 10am, she would pick me up and go out for breakfast. I know that’s nothing much but I sort of started to miss it ever since I started form 3 which is in morning.

>>慈母手中线，游子身上衣。
临行密密缝，意恐迟迟归。
谁言寸草心，报得三春晖。- 游子吟>>

Last year, I came to Perth. First time without her (for a really long length of time) was quite ok though- she taught me almost everything before I came, I would also ask her if I had any big unsolvable problems. But doing everything on my own was hard work. I think you all know what I mean. I even tried cooking for a whole bunch of people (which stopped after a week I think?). I felt really tired and helpless (and annoyed by the amount of work that I had to do myself). Imagine her doing it everyday without fail for five of us in the family who never really offered a lot of help (I did sometimes when I was talking to her) and still maintaining the high-standard and healthy home-cooked meals without complain or grudge.

>>树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在 >>

Reading someone’s blog really made me thinking. I really can’t afford to lose her. Especially not before I can repay what she had done all these years for me. I don’t even dare what will happen if I were to lose her (choi choi choi)…anyways, I will just end my post with how I would normally start every call I made every week…

“halo?”
“halo”
“我啊..”(me ah-again)
“你啊..”(you ah-smiling)
“嗯..”(yea)
“怎样? Ok吗?”(how’s things?ok?)
“差不多啦…”(so-so la..)
“…”

and this weekend I am going to add this:

“Happy Mother’s Day”

and God bless her..