one litre of tears

Boring post ahead...

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Jus watched a Japanese series- one litre of tears. It’s a true story based on the diary of girl who had spinocerebellar degenerative disease. Really made me realize how lucky we actually are being healthy and all. I can’t even bare to imagine what would happen if this were to happen to me. The problem with some these diseases is that they just come out of no where, without any warning, without any reason. It’s not because you did something unhealthy (like bad eating habits or lifestyle). It just chooses you because it can. The worse of all, some are incurable meaning that you know you will die soon. We all will die, that’s a fact. But getting a disease like that is just totally different. It’s as if your future has all been set out. You can see the limit of your live and you know you will die thus living a ‘dead’ live which some might even consider not worth living at all. We live now without thinking about dying, not knowing when we will die, living a ‘live’ life. There are numerous diseases of this nature. Some of the common ones are cancer, AIDS, and other genetical diseases. What’s so terrible about spinocerebellar degenerative disease is that, the brain cells starts to die off, and the patient starts to lose all control- speech, walking, eating, balance, writing…it’s like your body starts to die before you die. I know sounds stupid but the only thing left is your state of awareness that you are in fact alive even though you can’t do anything at all as if you are dead. The pain doesn’t end there. What about your family& friends? They would be equally heart-broken, feeling helpless. Would they be embarrassed? What about love? Her dreams of getting married with the boy she is in love with WILL NOT come true. Not being able to play sports, being labeled 'disabled' etc. All of these are portrayed in the series. Some say it’s one of the most depressing jap series. You’ll really cry buckets of tears.

MV:konayuki by remioromen


And this is a chinese song copied from the theme song of this series.
躲不过-李吉汉(Daniel Lee)

I typed this on a wooden table. So i've touched wood...=.=

condolences...

My deepest condolence to the n-g-nears who have to resit their watever GENG exam on 25th July (don even know wat so geng.....lame? i know). I know this is God's plans and there must be something good behind it. All the best!

On another note...let's celebrate reopening of uni on 24th July!!!! Yeah. It's Tuesday night somemore, so can go watch cinema at half price, eat ice-cream waffle at half price and then go karaoke(but not sure yet coz no half price)...

Ok, just kidding guys...peace to the world and my blog.. V (ok, i m trying to make the peace sign there..)

But if anyone wants, i won't mind...hehe

回忆

I wrote this last year(which was not very good)...and i translated it (which again is not very good)

(click for background music: little boy-房祖名) i know very chiplak...

回忆

十月不到的时光里
In these ten month’s time
周遭的一切令我回忆起了无数的往事
Everything around me reminded me of my past
回想起了：
And I missed all of them:

座落在死路面前的小家
My house at the end of the road
客厅冰冷的地砖
The icy cold tiles in my living room
睡房小小的门拉手
The small door knob of my bedroom’s door
洗手间洗脸盆的滴水声
The sound of water dripping in the toilet
厨房装满食物的冰箱
The food-filled fridge
红蓝白色又超舒服的塑胶椅
The super comfortable red, blue, white coloured chair
常来拜访屋外茉莉花的蜂鸟
The hummingbird which frequently visits the jasmine flower outside my house
做了十几年邻居的唯一一个邻居
The only neighbour which I have had for more than ten years
听与看不厌的电台与电视台节目
Tv and radio programmes which I will never be sick of
邻家每逢佳节有客人拜访时传来的小孩声
Sound of children from my neighbour whenever there is a holiday
吵到要死的知了
Noisy cicadas
每逢周末电视台会播的载歌载舞的印度电影
Song and dance filled Bollywood movies aired every weekend
令人捧腹大笑、泪流满面、一头污水的广告
Advertisements which make you laugh, cry or even confused
下午开冷气机产生的低频率，低振幅的声音
The low frequency, low amplitude sound of the air-conditioner in the afternoon
能记朋友家电话号码，打电话时又不用查电话簿的能力
The ability to remember friends number and not having to check the telephone book everytime I call
半夜三点起来在一片寂静听电台定时播放的歌的那种宽心的感觉
The relaxing feeling of waking up 3am to listen to one particular soothing song on the radio in a quiet room
剪好头发会去买的酸梅味冰淇淋
The semboi ice-cream that I always buy after my haircut
差点就快吃到怕的pizza
Pizzas that I almost got sick of
偶尔七早八早陪妈妈去咖啡店吃早餐疲惫的感觉
The tired feeling from having to wake up early to have breakfast in kopitiams with my mom
去到腻但唯一可玩可喝的summer tea
The ‘summer tea’ which we go
每周四在炎热的太阳下走一段小路就到的补习班
The tuition centre which I have to walk to every Thursday afternoon under the hot sun
天天载我的妈妈的车、叔叔的车、偶尔爸爸的车
My mom’s car, uncle’s car, and sometimes my dad’s car which ferry me around
每年开学为了要争坐位肯牺牲睡眠的精神
Everyone’s willingness to sacrifice sleeping time to get a good seat on the first day of school every year
校长、老师、学生、巡察员都个讲个的的周会
The assembly where everyone gives a speech
长得要死的州歌
The never-ending state anthem
到现在还是不会唱的校歌
The school song which I have yet to master
每位不同性格的老师:爱捏人的、有不测之脾气的、给太多功课的、爱小叮当的、被仰慕/暗恋/憎恨的、不会教书又谈姐弟恋的、最好欺负的、不认识的…
The different characters of my teachers, some who: likes to pinch you, have weird tempers, gives too much homework, loves doraemon, were admired/loved secretly/hated deeply, who doesn’t know how to teach and have an relationship with a student, are affectionately bullied by students and some who I don’t even know
在班上热闹、偶尔不寒而栗的气氛
The lively but sometimes scary atmosphere of the class
午餐后色味俱全、挤得水泄不通、这么多班里最轻松的华文班
The crowded, foul-smelling and most relaxing Chinese Language class we have after lunch
rehat做的一切:赶(抄)功课、拜访隔壁班、去办公室吹冷气、去图书馆吹冷气、bertugas、在厕所‘臭’的热闹、无所事事…
The stuff we do during rehat: rushing(copying) homework, visiting next class, going to the staffroom for the air-conditioner, bertugas-ing, the not-really-smelly toilet, doing nothing...
简单不过的nilam
The oh-so-easy nilam
风靡全校一段时间的'蜜斯'
‘Massive’ (a catalogue) which was very popular throughout the school
那本正堆积灰尘的六孔册
The six-holed notebook which is collecting dust
食堂常常卖完的炸鸡翅膀
The fried chicken wings which are always sold out
点pizza送到学校吃的经验
The experience of ordering pizza and be delivered to the school for lunch
考试前一晚抱佛脚的经验
Last minutes studies before the exam
分考卷前不必烧香的福气
The luck of not having to worry about exam results
天天穿制服的感觉
The feeling of wearing uniform to school
逼不得以要去的gotong-royong
The gotong-royong which was ‘wajib’
很谈得来的好朋友
Friends whom I really treasure
无忧无虑、不太顾虑别人看法、不必事事亲力亲为、开开心心的那段日子
The days when I lived without worries, not caring what other people think about me, not having to do everything on my own, and lived happily
住了十多年的小小的民都鲁镇
The bintulu town where I lived for more than ten years
快乐的过去
The happy past
快乐的自己
My happy self
…

就让一切烙印在脑海中
May these memories be forever remembered
好让日后还能回顾
I'll revisit these memories in the future
在回忆里从新感受那些滋味
Reliving these memories and savouring it

这全部很久都没做、听、看过。有些也没机会可以再经历了。。。
I haven’t done, listened or seen all these stuff for quite a long time. Some of which I might not even have the chance to relive again...

five years- first time- fifth post

Woa..second post in a day...man i m wasting so much time...

OMG! Dat was the best two hours dat I had in these two weeks. Such good movies. Ugly Betty and Grey’s Anatomy! Totally unstressed (for those past two hours) OMG! OMG! OMG! And the suspense…OMG!

For those who missed it:

Ugly Betty: Betty told Henry that she loved him and dat’s why she dumped that Wil guy (wat’s his name again?). Ohya, Henry’s (past) gf (who was trying to make thing better) was in New York and betty sort of didn’t like her. Lol the train station was funny. That bitch at the round table (wat’s her name? Amanda is it?) kept asking her to jus leave henry’s gf in the train. Wait! Some more. Hot stuff! Lucy Liu appeared and she and Daniel ehem…got down to business- his father’s case (wat were you thinking). Alexis didn’t have fren…sad girl/guy (and so weird, there a guy hitting on her/HIM)…and Willi tried to be her/his fren coz she saw how Daniel and her/him were very close and you know her motive to be her/his fren la….(I know someone finished watching liao…downloaded the whole series...so now you hv nothing to watch…haha)

Grey’s Anatomy: from last week, Meredith was pushed into the water when she was trying to save a victim from a big ship crash. The whole 1 hour series was uber touching. George lied to a victim that he found her son and had to look frantically all over the hospital. Dr. Stevens made a hole in some victims’ head to relief pressure at the crash site. So, gan jiong and they show her cutting the skin of the head up-close and the drill into the skull. Not for the faint-hearted. (And I was thinking wat I if did med-but that’s beside’s the point) People were in the hospital waiting for the news for their loved ones and it was really sad to see one of the victim’s husband broke down into tears when he realize that her pregnant wife died. I know it’s nothing much when I say it but if you watched it…fuyo. And finally Meredith was brought back to the hospital with hypothermia, her face damn pale (good make-up artist). All the resident doctors (the main characters of course) and the bunch of trainees (I know there’s another word for it) were all there and were so nervous. Cannot explain here the whole tense atmosphere, but Dr. Stevens said a lot of touching stuff trying to give hope to her colleague. ‘I BELIEVE she will survive. I BELIEVE…I BELIEVE…’ there was one line in it which was funny though: ‘I BELIEVE when I eat butter (?) and no one saw it, I wont get the calories.’ So next episode must watch. Ohya, they showed (from the preview) that Meredith died. Yeah, 'showed' that she died, but I don’t think so la.

Woa…uber long post considering I have exam tomoro (and this post sounds a bit gay). I BELIEVE I should be studying, like now.

For those not finishing their exam yet...hang on to it, dont stress (too much).

I m done, full stop.

Cheer guys/girls/guy-girls!

let's count..

Teacher says:
'Morning class. Today let's revise counting from 1-10. Let's count how many engineers are there in this picture. They are the ones wearing the fugly party hats and holding achohol bottles. Make sure you include those on the floor half-dead and not the ones sleeping soundly or trying to study. Let's count together.'
Class says:
1 n-g-near, 2 n-g-nears, 3 n-g-nears.......


Ok. STudY tIMe.=.= so sleepy.-(so dead.

lima tahun- kali pertama (bab 4)

Cuma satu perkataan boleh menggambarkan (aku tahu ada satu perkataan lain yang lebih sesuai kan?) keadaan aku ini sekarang. Hanya satu sahaja. Itu pun kerana tidak banyak masa lagi tinggal untuk aku mengulangkaji peperiksaanku yang akan melanda esok petang. Aku benar-benar sudah bosan dengan apa yang sedang diulangkajikan. Terlalu banyak fakta perlu diingati. Malah, apa yang aku sedang belajari ini jauh lebih bosan and mengelirukan berbanding dengan sajarah tingkatan 4 & 5. Benar. Engkau tidak percaya?

Ohya. Satu perkataan. Tidak ada perkataan lain yang lebih sesuai lagi.

Satu perkataan.

STRES!

Kena mandi sekarang...

(93 patah perkataan)

五年之第一次之第三篇

嗯，title好像重复太多次了。

（警惕：粗话、口语连篇。。不适小孩阅读）

卖姑溜！哪一个白痴排的考试表啊？今天刚考完f’ed up两科明天又有一科死不难的！再过两天又来一个！刁啦！今晚又要熬夜了！

当我在烦的当儿，有人尽然说很伤心拿不到优等！基bot！我死不担心不会pass，有些人在愁拿不到满分，我也不知道该说什么，谁叫我飞蛾扑火，念牙科。（可是，我不会后悔的。干巴爹！）（这一段重点在我，不在讲的那个人，所以。。。不要sendiri pedas啊！如果tercucuk hati, sorry ya。）

Anyway,刚才，哇哟，突然间比啉吧郎下起大雨！那个时侯我还在吃着打包的晚餐呢。哇些man！很久没有下那么大雨咯！有点惊讶。
好应该开始读书了！念什么？念牙齿－牙釉质enamel, 象牙质dentine, 牙髓pulp, 牙周韧带periodontal ligament，齿龈gingiva, 齿槽骨alveolar bone等。

咳。。。累。

p/s不好意思今天没什么心情post。可是就因为要有罪恶感。。。

五年之第一之第二篇

惨了！惨了！明天又要进考场了！还是两科叻！

刚才下午煮了马铃薯＋红萝卜（我还以为‘卜’念buo）＋番茄＋洋葱＋江鱼仔汤。原本还不错的（当然还是不能媲美我妈的），可是好像越喝越没味道，可能是没心情吧。

刚才开电邮箱（也有两个星期没查了），发现我一个朋友寄了一封电邮。念了之后，非常感动。感动并非在内容，而是在他那分心意。我还以为已经与我以前中学朋友完全失去联络了。还是不谈了，等一下没心情念书。

啊！！！！！！
现在连佛脚都没得好抱了！嗨。。。还是节哀顺变吧！善哉善哉！
Next sem 我24/7烧香！

不唱歌了，谁叫上次暴冷场。。。

好。该是时候冲凉了。

五年之第一

我知道我在考试前一晚不应该在这里浪费时间写blog，可是真的念得累死了，好像在考SPM（大马教育文凭）那样那么大压力。
好啦，不多说了。现在浪费了一点时间，开始有罪恶感了，可以逼自己读书了。
祝各位考试顺利，榜上有名（我自己只要能pass我就满意了）！

神啊救救我吧，一把年纪了。。。（取自陈小春的歌）

WED!

Just wanna say today's World Environment Day!

Excerpt from here:

"World Environment Day, commemorated each year on 5 June, is one of the principal vehicles through which the United Nations stimulates worldwide awareness of the environment and enhances political attention and action.

The World Environment Day slogan selected for 2007 is 'Melting Ice – a Hot Topic?'(冰川消融：后果甚忧？, El Deshielo-Un Asunto Candente?, La fonte des glaces-une question brulante?) In support of International Polar Year, the WED theme selected for 2007 focuses on the effects that climate change is having on polar ecosystems and communities, and the ensuing consequences around the world.

The main international celebrations of the World Environment Day 2007 will be held in Norway. UNEP is honoured that the City of Tromsø will be hosting this United Nations day(It was in Adelaide, Australia in year 2000).

The day's agenda is to give a human face to environmental issues; empower people to become active agents of sustainable and equitable development; promote an understanding that communities are pivotal to changing attitudes towards environmental issues; and advocate partnership, which will ensure all nations and peoples enjoy a safer and more prosperous future. World Environment Day is a people's event with colourful activities such as street rallies, bicycle parades, green concerts, essays and poster competitions in schools, tree planting, as well as recycling and clean-up campaigns."

Photos taken from here too.


Rupturing glacier..


Drought...

Air pollution from steel mill...

Coral bleaching...

Flood...

PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOUR ENVIRONMENT!