執著VS熱誠VS夢想VS心
心 會累
夢想 會破滅
熱誠 會減退
執著 還是執著
正常VS不正常
人多那一邊 叫正常
人少那一邊 叫不正常
很簡單
自此
Thursday, October 30, 2008
堕落ing
倒数八天
今天的prac也没自己想象的完美 很失望
在最后一分钟发现一个紧要的错误 可是太迟了
希望它不足以令我fail
最近吃喝玩乐都不协调
吃的烂 喝得少 玩太多 乐-几乎不存在
脑子也很喜欢放空
一下想念完五年后又什么打算 一下想今晚吃什么 一下担心万一明年留级要怎样fit in
然后就会提醒自己要买咖啡 熬夜去
再熬二十一天就over了
今天的prac也没自己想象的完美 很失望
在最后一分钟发现一个紧要的错误 可是太迟了
希望它不足以令我fail
最近吃喝玩乐都不协调
吃的烂 喝得少 玩太多 乐-几乎不存在
脑子也很喜欢放空
一下想念完五年后又什么打算 一下想今晚吃什么 一下担心万一明年留级要怎样fit in
然后就会提醒自己要买咖啡 熬夜去
再熬二十一天就over了
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
笔擦削
今天早上的practical考的不是那么理想。还记得前一晚还信心满满的，觉得这两个肯定pass。怎么知道，考试一开始就手忙脚乱，幸亏护士们都很友善，都劝我们要镇定，鼓励我们。三个钟头后出来，一个很有可能几乎是肯定不及格，一个没大碍的话可能会pass。明天还有两个。六个prac之中至少要三个及格才能拿supplementary，五个及格才能pass这门unit。现在每个人都很stress，都失去了笑容（其实念我们这个course的，唯有first yr 还会笑，其他的-我们担心不能pass这exam，third yr也忙着为十多张考试paper准备，fourth yr也一样（只是他们九月也已经考了另十多张），fifth yr clinic 没位，恐怕不能毕业）。如果今天两个都fail了，就是说接下来的四个只能fail一个才有机会进下一年。不然就这样结束了。真的很怕。。。
有人很贱，真的。为了谋取利益，竟然背着良心讨好某些人。明知那某人很爱炫耀，还故意称赞他，简直就是feed着他的ego嘛，心理学学得还蛮有用的。真的是名副其实的两面蛇。自己还说别人是非，说人家是马屁精。
考试倒数进入单数了-9 天。 我还是那么没心情去温习，没心情煮，这几个星期都不打工。
最近和屋友的关系好像有好转（不是说之前很糟），都有比较多话吧。可能是因为那次朋友拜访时得知原来我也那么讨厌这间屋子时，觉得我没那么讨人厌吧。哈哈。所以明年多半会继续和他一起住，在另一间屋子。还有，他超勤劳好吗。
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刚design完假牙 满桌笔擦削
很自然的用手掌把它们扫到一起 小心翼翼的推到桌边 扫进手掌 丢掉
这熟练的过程 忘了是什么时候学来的
多半是中学-画graf，画diagram experimen
有人很贱，真的。为了谋取利益，竟然背着良心讨好某些人。明知那某人很爱炫耀，还故意称赞他，简直就是feed着他的ego嘛，心理学学得还蛮有用的。真的是名副其实的两面蛇。自己还说别人是非，说人家是马屁精。
考试倒数进入单数了-9 天。 我还是那么没心情去温习，没心情煮，这几个星期都不打工。
最近和屋友的关系好像有好转（不是说之前很糟），都有比较多话吧。可能是因为那次朋友拜访时得知原来我也那么讨厌这间屋子时，觉得我没那么讨人厌吧。哈哈。所以明年多半会继续和他一起住，在另一间屋子。还有，他超勤劳好吗。
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刚design完假牙 满桌笔擦削
很自然的用手掌把它们扫到一起 小心翼翼的推到桌边 扫进手掌 丢掉
这熟练的过程 忘了是什么时候学来的
多半是中学-画graf，画diagram experimen
Monday, October 27, 2008
庆祝原创
未來-黄浚源（feat云鎂鑫）
三岔口-满江浤
我不够好-詹雪琳
不可以不是你-莊靖毅
贪心你的思念-佳旺&子荧
谢谢你-钟盛忠
还没找到！！
期待-ing 1122娱协奖！
2008 娱协奖颁奖典礼大会主题曲 - STAR
李志清，罗忆诗，光良，易桀齐，曹格，梁静茹，林宇中，伍家辉，谢婉婷，黄浚源，黄威尔，许俾文，童欣，温力铭，李吉汉，张起政，黎升铭，二号旋，马嘉轩
娱协奖新人主题曲-《梦想起飞》
伍家辉，詹雪琳，陈政仁，郑伟康，菲比，培杰&黄威尔，钟晓玉&马嘉轩，曾国辉，佳旺&子荧，俞均浤&叶江兴，Manhand&黃明志，李欣怡&欣彦，李俊杰&Crossfire，Twin girls，张祖诚&龚柯允，W.H.Y，黄浚源&陈诗莉，罗忆诗&陈势安，许俾文&陈慧恬
摘自此
三岔口-满江浤
我不够好-詹雪琳
不可以不是你-莊靖毅
贪心你的思念-佳旺&子荧
谢谢你-钟盛忠
还没找到！！
期待-ing 1122娱协奖！
2008 娱协奖颁奖典礼大会主题曲 - STAR
李志清，罗忆诗，光良，易桀齐，曹格，梁静茹，林宇中，伍家辉，谢婉婷，黄浚源，黄威尔，许俾文，童欣，温力铭，李吉汉，张起政，黎升铭，二号旋，马嘉轩
娱协奖新人主题曲-《梦想起飞》
伍家辉，詹雪琳，陈政仁，郑伟康，菲比，培杰&黄威尔，钟晓玉&马嘉轩，曾国辉，佳旺&子荧，俞均浤&叶江兴，Manhand&黃明志，李欣怡&欣彦，李俊杰&Crossfire，Twin girls，张祖诚&龚柯允，W.H.Y，黄浚源&陈诗莉，罗忆诗&陈势安，许俾文&陈慧恬
摘自此
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
wk 43
ya i know..there i go again with my word-heavy post...
monday: did injections on each other...freaky, my hands were shaking like mad the first time i went it, but the second i injected it was ok (despite the fact that i might have given my fren muscle ache coz i pierced through the huge muscle in that area instead of avoiding it)...my right of the mouth was pretty much numb for 3 hours, when i drink water, only one side feel the cold, the other side feels swollen and as if i cant close properly. and when ppl smile it's loopsided.
this week is my last week for my drilling prac- 12 hours. can feel fear, pressure and adrenaline pumping in the whole lab as everyone's drilling as much as they can to practice.
tuesday(3 hours): cant remember wat i did- few class V amalgam prep, one classic class III amalgam prep
wednesday(6 solid hours in lab): 41 mesial Class III prep, 47 MOD prep, 26 class I occ-li prep,
thurs(3 hours-totally psyched up): 14 MOD prep, pack 14 MOD, pack a 26 DOL+mesial pit, 11 mesial Class III prep
most amount of stuff ever i did in these few days
now all that's left is the prac exam next week- 9 hours (3 sessions)- everyone's totally stressing out and saying they'll most prob repeat 2nd yr again...and eveyrone's speculating and predicting what' going to come out...well we'll know soon enough...
i'm very tired-- been waking up at 6 to do my group assignment- next up is a techinician instruction sheet and it will be over by next week- starting to feel worried that eveyone's starting to study already whereas i'm still here typing all this stupid useless stuff. really unmotivated. sigh~~~~
monday: did injections on each other...freaky, my hands were shaking like mad the first time i went it, but the second i injected it was ok (despite the fact that i might have given my fren muscle ache coz i pierced through the huge muscle in that area instead of avoiding it)...my right of the mouth was pretty much numb for 3 hours, when i drink water, only one side feel the cold, the other side feels swollen and as if i cant close properly. and when ppl smile it's loopsided.
this week is my last week for my drilling prac- 12 hours. can feel fear, pressure and adrenaline pumping in the whole lab as everyone's drilling as much as they can to practice.
tuesday(3 hours): cant remember wat i did- few class V amalgam prep, one classic class III amalgam prep
wednesday(6 solid hours in lab): 41 mesial Class III prep, 47 MOD prep, 26 class I occ-li prep,
thurs(3 hours-totally psyched up): 14 MOD prep, pack 14 MOD, pack a 26 DOL+mesial pit, 11 mesial Class III prep
most amount of stuff ever i did in these few days
now all that's left is the prac exam next week- 9 hours (3 sessions)- everyone's totally stressing out and saying they'll most prob repeat 2nd yr again...and eveyrone's speculating and predicting what' going to come out...well we'll know soon enough...
i'm very tired-- been waking up at 6 to do my group assignment- next up is a techinician instruction sheet and it will be over by next week- starting to feel worried that eveyone's starting to study already whereas i'm still here typing all this stupid useless stuff. really unmotivated. sigh~~~~
Sunday, October 19, 2008
thoughts
Jus some random thoughts
i think i will apply for an overseas placement in 5th yr. For 3 months. Maybe somewhere like singapore or malaysia. :)
having talked on the phone for 45 mins(called back home), my thoughts flew back to my malaysia home, coz when sat down, i felt this unfamiliarity for a microsecond, then the heat and the pile of notes shot me back into my room.
next yr CNY i'll be here, starting class, sigh~~
my family will be here as well...sigh...jk..yeah!!!!!!
i think i will apply for an overseas placement in 5th yr. For 3 months. Maybe somewhere like singapore or malaysia. :)
having talked on the phone for 45 mins(called back home), my thoughts flew back to my malaysia home, coz when sat down, i felt this unfamiliarity for a microsecond, then the heat and the pile of notes shot me back into my room.
next yr CNY i'll be here, starting class, sigh~~
my family will be here as well...sigh...jk..yeah!!!!!!
Wk 42
Sorry after a search on google, i saw my word.
Bulk-blogging.
Yes, i've been doing that unconsciously. Keeping a log of what to write everyday until i cant remember no more and it 'explodes'. So here goes again.
Monday
Late day start coz i dont have the lab in the morning. Afternoon was normal. Night was normal. Pretty sure i forgot sth, coz it's definitely not that normal.
Tuesday
Woke super early jus to attend a lecture, then went back to uni. As i may or may not have mentioned, my bike lock is stuck. As in even with a key in it, it still cant open. So i've finally decided. I went to the locksmith/cobbler at guild (lucky i noticed this little shop there tucked in the corner last yr). I went in hoping he can pick my lock but nooooo. I ended up having to use a bow saw to saw the chain (which was designed to prevent ppl from being able to cut it thru..=.=). So i was hiding there discreetly, trying to avoid ppl from noticing, sawing the chain bit by bit. Until the blade went blunt. And at last, with a bit of physics and material science, it finally broke. The guy was kind enough to refuse my offer to buy him a new blade. :) This certainly how i expected when i said 'please return the bike'.
and went to watch wall-e...nice movie with a lot of messages: move more, open ur eyes, be environmently friendly. and nice end credit. but we missed the bus, so had to walk back form subi to uwa
wednesday
nothing much i think. Played baddy. And my neck is still aching, which sort of affected me during the drilling lab later in the afternoon.
thursday
lab. sudden sugar craving. So, in the short one hour break at 12(had to rush back for a meeting at 1pm), went to JEAN-CLAUDE PATISSERIE and to get a new bike lock. got a free bike lock which was awesome. and JEAN-CLAUDE PATISSERIE was even more awesome...so much happiness in that small shop in the form of pastries...bought hazelnut escargot, fresh fruit danish, and almond croissant...i was a happy
And in my psychology lecture, i got a chocolate for answering a question on oedipus complex
Fri
i pleasantly realise that the bike that i jus got back has a punctured tyre-which means a few more days of walking again. in lab, one of my tutor was encouraging us: i know what you guys are going thru. but if i can make it(refering to her studying for her examS in sydney to be recognised by aus dental board), u can too. That sort of ties in to what i recalled the night before: If i can study 11 subjects in SPM, all being '2 yr units', why cant i do this- only 7 units, half of them only a 'one sem unit'. And it reminds me of another fact that sort of struck me (still). Someone was asking in class what will happen if u only pass 2 out of the 6 prac that we had to do the week after. the lecturer, expressionless-ly, said: that's pretty much the end.
Sat
Ok, she might not have said that, but i wanted the effect. she said u might hv to repeat.
morning- went to broadway to do survey for my group assignment- pu-blic pre-ception on den-tistry and its ef-fect on oral hy-gience prac-ti-ces. boring. stood 2 hrs and manage to get 10 ppl ranging from 21 to 70+ y.o., having more older ppl, gender balance, and one asian in the 10 ppl to appropriately represent the public. i think too much.
pictures will appear soon. after it's being transferred from my camera.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
summer
Mengumumkan ketibaan YAB Datuk Seri Summer a/p Nature
Diiringi oleh Datuk Suhu bin Tinggi
dan Datin Dry Gan
yg akan melawat Perth selama tiga bulan
Selamat Datang.
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summer is here...good season to be doing laudry, good season to jus stay indoor during the day and outdoor at night...
also means that i dont hv to wrap myself like a dumpling when i sleep at night
Diiringi oleh Datuk Suhu bin Tinggi
dan Datin Dry Gan
yg akan melawat Perth selama tiga bulan
Selamat Datang.
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summer is here...good season to be doing laudry, good season to jus stay indoor during the day and outdoor at night...
also means that i dont hv to wrap myself like a dumpling when i sleep at night
having wearing a outer wear for so long that now i feel naked without one...
and the night breeze somehow reminds me of my maternal grandma's house in kl (not mine, not my dad's mom's house)...mayb it's the temperature, or most prob the smell...but they all conjures the sound of motorbikes and cars driving pass late at night in front of my grandma's house...shit...God bless her..
Monday, October 13, 2008
I want to learn stuff
A fren of mine plans to buy guitar coz he’s been self-learning playing guitar. Another fren of mine will be getting a piano coz he wants to learn (and I taught him some basics thru msn). Yet another fren of mine bought flute(saw him polishing it in the car) and he’s learning it himself as well. I want to learn guitar and improve on my piano.
It’s going to be freakin 30 C tmr!!!!
It’s going to be freakin 30 C tmr!!!!
wk 41
Sorry about the word heavy post again. Will post some photos soon or talk something else other than my life (but this blog IS about my life)
Last week has been very very very very busy. I was almost at the verge of going to ‘pengsan’ anytime soon.
Monday- Local Analgesic test & Race. I was so preoccupied with preparing for the race I totally didn’t start studying until 8pm the night before. So it was sort of an all-nighter, just that I overslept (was supposed to wake up at 2am but ended up waking up at 6) and feeling so crap after. But thank god the test turned out ok. Then was the race- had to prepare all the clues and maps and everything else needed during lunch so that I can hand it to another person to help me take charge. But who knows, they didn’t carried out everything I’ ve asked them to, station masters weren’t briefed properly and my bike’s lock cannot be opened during the race(I was devastated when I realize I cant cycle the bike for the race- which meant I had to walk all around to make sure every station is going ok-and I was seriously thinking of jus waiting at the finishing line for 1.5 hours and jus talk thru the walkie-talkie). But thank goodness I found another bike. Generally the race went ok, a few hiccups (which will be pointed out during the post mortem).
Tuesday- research test & opening+ seminar. Didn’t start studying until 11pm (seriously too tired). Luckily the morning was off for me so could still study. But the best thing which happen was – they cancelled the test(1.5 hrs before the test) and at that point of time I haven’t even gone thru half the stuff I needed to study. I was jumping for joy(but didn’t get stuck) so I headed off to the opening ceremony. After, headed back home(was going to study for the next test) but by the time I’m done doing all the random stuff it was time to go for the seminar already. Fairly interesting- about this chinese lady growing up in Australia and the racial discrimination at her time, this aboriginal person who wanted Australia to solve the problems with Aborigines before even tyring to become a multicultural country and this muslim AFL player who talked mainly about his life as a footie player (which was quite inspiring). After that, headed off to cell.
Wednesday- Talent nite-I totally slacked off refusing to do any study, recovering from the stress before. But I manage to do a few lectures in the morning before going to lab and straight on to the talent nite. Like last yr I was in charge of the music which was fun. And my fren got into the second round (if he didn’t, he had to do some random acts for a mr. popular prize). The thing ended at 10.30pm.
Thursday- drilling theory test+ s p r i n g f e a s t- that was a real all-nighter- having slept for only 2 hours(2 plus to 4 plus) trying to cram 18 lectures(which I tot was only 13 lectures initially) and only manage to finish it 10 mins before the test. Then went straight for a drilling practical class which we were all in no mood to do. I even fell asleep in the afternoon lecture(which is very interesting and not boring at all). Went home to sleep for an hour before heading back to uni for the night event. And the majority of the night I was helping to sell candy floss(simply couldn’t get it at the first few rounds- took me quite a while to do it properly-fluffy and big). Totally enjoyed the last few performances – a band performance and this guitarist (winner from the night before). Pretty much everyone was singing along with the band and I was happily making my candy floss there. Wonderful feeling. Then pack up/clean up/dismantle time- which took til 12 plus am. But it was fun. And I was forced to inhaled helium and talk…haha.
Friday- football match. Attended lab in the morning, lecture after. Then rush to the main campus to help them with the match set-up. Then rush back for another lab. After the lab, rush back again to the match to watch the semi-finals and finals. And when it ended, that was it. All the hard work for this one week. It was very enjoyable to work with everyone, even got to know a few more people during the week. And had karaoke at night- totally relaxed- but too bad I had sore throat (from drinking more than 4 cups of bubble tea throughout the week and the stress must have lowered my immune system)
Probably the week to remember for this year. Taking up all the challenge and surviving thru it was really an achievement. Really couldn’t have done it without His help.:)
Last week has been very very very very busy. I was almost at the verge of going to ‘pengsan’ anytime soon.
Monday- Local Analgesic test & Race. I was so preoccupied with preparing for the race I totally didn’t start studying until 8pm the night before. So it was sort of an all-nighter, just that I overslept (was supposed to wake up at 2am but ended up waking up at 6) and feeling so crap after. But thank god the test turned out ok. Then was the race- had to prepare all the clues and maps and everything else needed during lunch so that I can hand it to another person to help me take charge. But who knows, they didn’t carried out everything I’ ve asked them to, station masters weren’t briefed properly and my bike’s lock cannot be opened during the race(I was devastated when I realize I cant cycle the bike for the race- which meant I had to walk all around to make sure every station is going ok-and I was seriously thinking of jus waiting at the finishing line for 1.5 hours and jus talk thru the walkie-talkie). But thank goodness I found another bike. Generally the race went ok, a few hiccups (which will be pointed out during the post mortem).
Tuesday- research test & opening+ seminar. Didn’t start studying until 11pm (seriously too tired). Luckily the morning was off for me so could still study. But the best thing which happen was – they cancelled the test(1.5 hrs before the test) and at that point of time I haven’t even gone thru half the stuff I needed to study. I was jumping for joy(but didn’t get stuck) so I headed off to the opening ceremony. After, headed back home(was going to study for the next test) but by the time I’m done doing all the random stuff it was time to go for the seminar already. Fairly interesting- about this chinese lady growing up in Australia and the racial discrimination at her time, this aboriginal person who wanted Australia to solve the problems with Aborigines before even tyring to become a multicultural country and this muslim AFL player who talked mainly about his life as a footie player (which was quite inspiring). After that, headed off to cell.
Wednesday- Talent nite-I totally slacked off refusing to do any study, recovering from the stress before. But I manage to do a few lectures in the morning before going to lab and straight on to the talent nite. Like last yr I was in charge of the music which was fun. And my fren got into the second round (if he didn’t, he had to do some random acts for a mr. popular prize). The thing ended at 10.30pm.
Thursday- drilling theory test+ s p r i n g f e a s t- that was a real all-nighter- having slept for only 2 hours(2 plus to 4 plus) trying to cram 18 lectures(which I tot was only 13 lectures initially) and only manage to finish it 10 mins before the test. Then went straight for a drilling practical class which we were all in no mood to do. I even fell asleep in the afternoon lecture(which is very interesting and not boring at all). Went home to sleep for an hour before heading back to uni for the night event. And the majority of the night I was helping to sell candy floss(simply couldn’t get it at the first few rounds- took me quite a while to do it properly-fluffy and big). Totally enjoyed the last few performances – a band performance and this guitarist (winner from the night before). Pretty much everyone was singing along with the band and I was happily making my candy floss there. Wonderful feeling. Then pack up/clean up/dismantle time- which took til 12 plus am. But it was fun. And I was forced to inhaled helium and talk…haha.
Friday- football match. Attended lab in the morning, lecture after. Then rush to the main campus to help them with the match set-up. Then rush back for another lab. After the lab, rush back again to the match to watch the semi-finals and finals. And when it ended, that was it. All the hard work for this one week. It was very enjoyable to work with everyone, even got to know a few more people during the week. And had karaoke at night- totally relaxed- but too bad I had sore throat (from drinking more than 4 cups of bubble tea throughout the week and the stress must have lowered my immune system)
Probably the week to remember for this year. Taking up all the challenge and surviving thru it was really an achievement. Really couldn’t have done it without His help.:)
Thank you
Thank you Dad,
For the last minute reading you directed me to look at before the LA test which allowed me to do the calculation
For all the random phrases you showed me when I was revising which turned out to be answers to questions
For helping out during the race esp the ending of the race
For cancelling the second test which got me totally stoked
For the inspiring seminar
For lead cell
For the wit/quick reflex/creativity when I was doing the music
For making me man again
For the motivation/awake-ness you gave me to study thru the night
For the ingenious idea of sleeping on the chair and table so that I wont sleep in the next morning
For helping me take notice of random details which turned out to be exam questions
For the CD you help her help me compile
For the wonderful night and the sweet floss stuck onto me
For the wonderful week
For that short feeling of love
For passing all the exams- and even doing very well in them
For keeping me healthy
May I be a testimony of You
Glory goes to You.
For the last minute reading you directed me to look at before the LA test which allowed me to do the calculation
For all the random phrases you showed me when I was revising which turned out to be answers to questions
For helping out during the race esp the ending of the race
For cancelling the second test which got me totally stoked
For the inspiring seminar
For lead cell
For the wit/quick reflex/creativity when I was doing the music
For making me man again
For the motivation/awake-ness you gave me to study thru the night
For the ingenious idea of sleeping on the chair and table so that I wont sleep in the next morning
For helping me take notice of random details which turned out to be exam questions
For the CD you help her help me compile
For the wonderful night and the sweet floss stuck onto me
For the wonderful week
For that short feeling of love
For passing all the exams- and even doing very well in them
For keeping me healthy
May I be a testimony of You
Glory goes to You.
Saturday, October 04, 2008
wk40
normal rambling...nothing interesting...dont waste ur time
Just finished my tax return claim...feeling quite sh*t+tired+lost+overwhelmed+doubtful+hysteric+etc these few days…crazy cramming didn’t help…thank god radiography test went ok…easier than I expected. I was fully stressed about it, as I only started studying 4pm the day before (after an awesome bbq). So stressed that I even went to buy coffee, ‘Mother’, ‘V’ and prunes jus to get my brain fired up. Totally feeling shit and cursing my way thru the night asking why I didn’t study earlier and how am I going to get thru this…I end upsleeping a bit too much more than what I planned ( 4 +hrs) so I ended up cramming 3 chapter (70 pages?) in 1.5 hr before rushing out in the morning…the next day I had a prac test which went better than I expected and when I got back my result, it was a conditional pass (I had to improve on it before getting a pass) and the freaking amalgam filling is getting onto my nerves…then the test on Thursday, thankful that someone mentioned to us this online self-assessment quiz coz the test paper was totally the same…(but I still didn’t get 100, hving done it an hr before the test)…then the interview…damn nervous…overall went ok, explored her feelings, situation, a bit jumbled up, but summary should be good enough…only one thing, I didn’t introduce my name and ask hers…=.=’’’...had kfc's favourites bowl a lunch- that was the only fun thing the whole
Cell group’s not fun anymore…I think I got too familiar with them…having such a cell leader obviously didn’t help (sarcastic, bossy, queen-of-the-world attitude)… and the fact everyone is so bubbly and oh-so enthusiastic disgust me…my focus changed quite a bit from when I joined them to now… coming with reluctance (and un-open-hearted-ness) and going home feeling emptier than when I came…and I think I’ve sort of drifted away from Him…got quite confused with some stuff which I seriously cant be bother trying to look deeper at this time…
I’m still trying to figure out how I’m going to use this short weekend to prepare for my 3 test, mcw and my own life.
I’ve fallen asleep a few times this week with everything still on my bed, not brushing my teeth, lights still on…jus too tired to be bothered...
Just finished my tax return claim...feeling quite sh*t+tired+lost+overwhelmed+doubtful+hysteric+etc these few days…crazy cramming didn’t help…thank god radiography test went ok…easier than I expected. I was fully stressed about it, as I only started studying 4pm the day before (after an awesome bbq). So stressed that I even went to buy coffee, ‘Mother’, ‘V’ and prunes jus to get my brain fired up. Totally feeling shit and cursing my way thru the night asking why I didn’t study earlier and how am I going to get thru this…I end upsleeping a bit too much more than what I planned ( 4 +hrs) so I ended up cramming 3 chapter (70 pages?) in 1.5 hr before rushing out in the morning…the next day I had a prac test which went better than I expected and when I got back my result, it was a conditional pass (I had to improve on it before getting a pass) and the freaking amalgam filling is getting onto my nerves…then the test on Thursday, thankful that someone mentioned to us this online self-assessment quiz coz the test paper was totally the same…(but I still didn’t get 100, hving done it an hr before the test)…then the interview…damn nervous…overall went ok, explored her feelings, situation, a bit jumbled up, but summary should be good enough…only one thing, I didn’t introduce my name and ask hers…=.=’’’...had kfc's favourites bowl a lunch- that was the only fun thing the whole
Cell group’s not fun anymore…I think I got too familiar with them…having such a cell leader obviously didn’t help (sarcastic, bossy, queen-of-the-world attitude)… and the fact everyone is so bubbly and oh-so enthusiastic disgust me…my focus changed quite a bit from when I joined them to now… coming with reluctance (and un-open-hearted-ness) and going home feeling emptier than when I came…and I think I’ve sort of drifted away from Him…got quite confused with some stuff which I seriously cant be bother trying to look deeper at this time…
I’m still trying to figure out how I’m going to use this short weekend to prepare for my 3 test, mcw and my own life.
I’ve fallen asleep a few times this week with everything still on my bed, not brushing my teeth, lights still on…jus too tired to be bothered...
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